If I died tomorrow
You'd still wouldn't say my name
If I cried tomorrow
You still won't ask if I'm okay
But if I committed a crime tomorrow
You would scream my name through all these halls
You would say you tried to change my life Even though you know that you are wrong
If I hung myself tomorrow
You would say that you tried to save my life
But if I asked for help tomorrow
You would leave without a single goodbye
Now I've faced ignorance and hypocrisy and many bitter strifes
So what is even the point
A clock is ticking down till the end of my life
So sorry to say
But I don't think I'll make it to 21
It might be shame
But I was always the target of this blame
You never cared for me
You only cared for the idea of who I was
Maybe I'm not okay anymore
I don't think I'm okay anymore
Truth is the tell tale heart is beating
It's stuck inside me and I need it out
We are are supposed to learn from our mistakes
But we will never learn as long as people are fakes
So then they did an experiment
They locked with people I hated and watched me slowly die
I guess geometry was useful
Cause now I use it to find my neck size
Scare me to death
I'm scared of my breath
Scare me away
Watch me decay
Fool I was to believe it true
That anything could be as possibly good as you
So sorry to say
But I don't think I'll make it to 21
It might be shame
But I was always the target of this blame
You never cared for me
You only cared for the idea of who I was
Maybe I'm not okay
I don't think I'm okay
No I can't be okay
I know I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I don't think I ever was