I ain't been to church in a long time
I don't even pick up the phone line
I haven't picked up the phone to call family lately
Lately I been trapped in my own mind
I been feeling like I owe time
Been feeling like home is a whole lie
Been feeling like
Those who hate me
Patiently waiting
I break character the whole time
Whole time
Uh
I ain't never been faking
I got these demons that I been facing
Feeling like I'm so close to my dreams
But me and my fears are a little to adjacent
Feeling like I'm
Complicating
Complications
Time is wasting
I'm complacent
I'm debating
Why I'm waiting
I'm so patient
Feeling like I can make it
But I can't take it
Uh
Nobody told me that this life shit
Wasn't righteous
In the slightest
And that's fair
Might just
Go and fight this
But I'm conscious that I might not like this
And that's fear
Might just
Go and fight this
Cause I'm lightning
And when I write this
Yeah that's rare
And I care
But I don't
So tell me what the f*ck you want
I want
What I want
And I want it all
Tell me what the f*ck you want
Tell me what the f*ck it is
Tell me what's the f*cking point
For any and all of this shit
I don't even really know
I don't even really care
Tell me what its really worth
For all this shit you wanna hear
Tell me what the f*ck you want
Tell me what the f*ck it is
Tell me what's the f*cking point
Yeah