Requiem for a Dream (feat. kels) Video (MV)

I've been questioning my choices lately and rehashing most my missteps
Cuz I tricked on misfortune and flirted with fire just to kiss death
I promised I would call her but I had a bunch of different offers
So like a dope fiend tying off I found my favorite scar then bruised it farther
Who are you to judge my motives? You'd probably paint me like my father
What's the point of fighting back when the plans to turn me to a martyr
Why even bother? I'd rather fall on my own sword
Then trade bars with you nerds and get caught up in your clone wars
I'm better off dead, she thinks shes better off with out me
That's why I'm spending all this bread and a carousel of bitches surround me
See it's a cold cold world and I feel a bit chilly
And sometimes I prod the beast to see if she'll still kill me
I'm lying to myself so I can tell you the truth
Bitch you're lying to yourself cuz theres
Nothing left for you to do
And you've grown used to the abuse
And you've grown used to me leaving
And accepted the truth that we can never be even
You're addicted to the seasons and the changes they bring
I'm the same I find beauty and pain in the strangest of things
My angel dust queen, my destroyer of worlds
With a couple cold words you revert back to a little girl
When I figured you out I realized I was over the games
But that same revelation must have broken your brain
I'm putting some distance in between me and your meltdown
It's been a short time but I've moved on with somebody else now
It's easy to forget when you change out women like tennis shoes
That they implode like a star while my world keeps spinning like centerfuge
It sounds callous but f*ck it, it's all I know and I'm surviving
I'd rather pull the trigger than be one of those fools left crying
But you knew that from day 1 I'm not a victim and I dont play one,
You're used to f*cking with fake ones,youve end a couple L's girl, take one
I never thought youd break that easy...
You know what they say about glass houses...
I actually am sorry but I dont give a f*ck if you believe me