Jaylen Blue - Wondering when I should end this and go inside Lyrics

I've been at it for a while and i think I've had enough
I just thought that I would go outside and maybe open up
To the trees, say wassup to the birds and roll me one
Get so high that I feel like im equivalent to the sun
See I'm wondering when I should go inside but this blunt got me alive
Or I may just roll me up another one just to only extend the time
I'm tryna stay up
But I know I shouldn't
Smoking till the sun is way up
Is what I think of doing but that's not reality if I'm tryna make it up in this world
There's a lot of people doing what I'm doing in this world which is making music and working harder than me
And that's something that I understand so I think of that when I'm writing lyrics hearing a hundred beats
Yea I smoke but I don't let that shit get in my way
I'm high as hell at this bench but I'm still awake
I know I said I'm bout to go in multiple times
But this time I'm going in
Trust me I ain't lying
Now that my high is going down i think a little more clear
Like what I wanna be doing coming in the next year
I think about the positive I think about the fear
And that's exactly why I smoke, to get up out of here
But now that my session is done I'm on it
I'm going back in the crib and writing me a sonnet
Then taking me a shower then get out, put on my bonnet
Im kinda happy that my high went down just to be honest
I spent a few hours sitting outside smoking one
This story from like 2020 I was on to one
Became a heavy smoker that's the worst thing ever done
Cause now I can't get off of it, I don't know if I want to
But if I wanted to i would
I feel I need an escape from evil in these woods
That's why I go back to the weed
Hit my plug for a few gs
He pull up
I get that
Back in the house
Break down trees
That's what I need
Or I feel like I need it but nigga that's up to me
Cause I feel like if it's in my system then I'll be complete
Ever since I started smoking I been on a different streak
Even tho I don't like to be high when I'm recording
Cause it'll f*ck with my voice I find it more rewarding
But since I came in the house
See my thoughts going wild
Thinking bout shit I don't wanna think about now