Jb - Save Me from Myself Lyrics

I've got these voices battling back-and-forth inside of me
Making me question my self belief and who I'm meant to be
It can be hard to know what's real and what's trying to scheme
I know what I want but am I ignoring the things I need

When I don't like the vibe I disappear from the scene
I cut myself enough with my own word I don't need you to make me bleed
Self doubt always overwhelms to the point I cannot breathe
Then I sit there in pity and compare myself to all those around me

See I have always felt outcasted but I still wanna feel accepted
These dark ideas I'm filled with and I think they're fantastic
Not even my family supports it or maybe I'm overthinking it
I know what it's like to be different and I feel so tired of hiding it

My true self is emerging but I don't wanna accept him
As I have been growin up my personality is switchin
I'm always anxious I just really do not like to mention
I am learning to accept how God has made me and who I am

So save me from myself
Please God save me from myself
Save me from myself
Please God save me from myself

So save me from myself
Please God save me from myself
Save me from myself
Please God save me from myself

I wrote this while wanting to be intoxicated
Not sayin to promote but to be real with the life Ive made
I'm fighting with my mind on a daily basis
The poison helps me sleep at night I wanna be wasted

I put away the nicotine but replaced it with the liquor
Studied it so much I memorized what makes you sicker
Not drinking in the day but I want the night to come quicker
So I can be on my own pour up the drink I don't wanna be bitter

I hope you hear this song
As honest self exposure
Not an alcoholic
But I won't decline the mixture
I'll probably go some days
Without saying cheers
But I'll hit it harder
When the weekend gets here

I'd tell this to my parents but I know what they'll say
'Son are you really doin ok talk to us sit and stay
You know you can fight it just have faith and don't stray
Reject the temptations and if you want it God'll make a way'

I'm tryna be better
I'm tryna produce
I'm tryna write letters
I'm tryna tell truth
I'm tryna have faith
I'm tryna stay calm
I'm tryna make way
Im tryna be numb
I'm tryna grow up
I'm tryna have fun
I'm tryna stay up
I'm tryna be love
I'm tryna make money
I'm tryna win
I'm tryna be funny
I'm tryna not sin

I'm tryna be patient
I'm tryna understand
I'm tryna listen
I'm tryna comprehend
I'm tryna be perfect
I'm tryna not be tired
I'm tryna surface
I'm tryna stay hired
I'm tryna rest
I'm tryna find
I'm tryna have peace
I'm tryna climb

I'm tryna do so many things
God please don't let this be the end for me

So save me from myself
Please God save me from myself
Save me from myself
Please God save me from myself

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Just save me from myself
Please God save me from myself (Save me)
Save me from myself
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Save me from myself (Help)
Please God just save me from myself
Save me from myself (Save me)
Please God save me from myself