Jcam - waiting room Lyrics

Yeah
No one cries forever
I been tellin' people that for a long time, I keep wiping the tears away
But, for some reason they just keep coming back

Breakin' news, the boy's alive again
I'm seein' corpses in the streets and it's so freightin'
I see mothers weep, buryin' their sons from violence
One at a time all of my brothers fears is heightenin'
Call my passion trash, then dog, you get to writin' it
And if I see you fall, I pray you find the light again
Tears every night, I fear that I'm losin' my mind again
Well if I do, don't be alarmed, I'm good at buyin' in
Almost two decades under my belt, it's going fast
Lost some friends and couldn't sleep seein' their time pass
Wondered if I would be the next one to run out of gas
I'm old enough to lose my life from slightly steppin' back
It's scary to watch, hard to live in these anxious eyes
I'm riskin' it all to chase a dream that might be a lie
I hope that it's not, so I'll be free from my broken mind
You wish I would stop, pray on my downfall and death to my life

But what you can't pray for is the death to the grind
I'm here for reasons other than payin' for you to be bright
Call it excuses, but that's what you say when you know I'm right
It's just y'all abusin' people you don't be callin' your type
But I'm a type for 'em
Matter of fact, I'll do better than that and write for 'em
You on the bench countin' your claps critiquin' my scorin'
I'm sick of hearin' your raps, it's whack, it's so borin'
I'll do one better than that and the claps will flash moments

It's so disheartenin' lookin' death in the eye
And prayin' the ones I lost are lookin' down from the sky
I've been distant from God, turnin' away but I cry
I find no pleasure in the gratitude of my pride
I'm so done with the games I've been playin'
I'm in my bedroom contemplatin' how to stop complainin'
While I'm ragin' 'bout how I don't have enough, I'm on full hatred
I wait for blessings from above to fall, without full praisin'
And I'm procrastinatin' my dreams and expect full greatness
And I'm angry at my future 'cause I got no patience
It's been a while since my last record, I know y'all waitin'
But I promise what you're gettin' soon will sound so crazy

I'm a man in the night alone lookin' for someone's love
But don't know if I'm gonna get it more below or above
What if I don't choose a side, could I just get up and run?
I'm stressin' every night in the dark awaitin' the sun