Jed Yi - Will It Ever End? Lyrics

And will ever end?
And will it ever end?
Cause I've been out here on my own
I've been tired, I've been cold
I've been numb to the feeling, it hurts in my soul
Will it end?
Will it ever end?

Numb to the feeling and I'm numb to the pain
Waking up everyday, not knowing what to say, or what to do
My mind slow, my words slurred, my eyes closed, my nights blurred
And I'm pretty sure that my soul has a puncture
Deeper than I can explain
Anxiety glued to my brain
No longer the wide eyed child that was excited for days
Now, I'm tryna survive
Used to be close to the vine
But now I'm left in the dust, looking up to the sky, wondering why?

And will ever end?
And will it ever end?
Cause I've been out here on my own
I've been tired, I've been cold
I've been numb to the feeling, it hurts in my soul
Will it end?
Will it ever end?

Have you left me?
I know that I've been living on my own, but have you left me?
Or is this just a test, cause I said "Lord, would you test me?"
And know my heart, I realize I'm just as dark as the sinners that I used to frown on
I'm looking in the mirror and I'm dressed with a filthy gown on
I mean, I knew that I was weak, I didn't know that I would break
I knew that I was mean, I didn't know that I was fake
And now I'm looking at the mirror at the real me
It's quite pathetic, and apathetic, I'm paralyzed and I'm paralytic
My fears feel like their parasitic, I'm feeling the judgment and I'm far from acquitted
I'm just trying to get through this life, but I feel like I'm quitting...

And will ever end?
And will it ever end?
Cause I've been out here on my own
I've been tired, I've been cold
I've been numb to the feeling, it hurts in my soul
Will it end?
Will it ever end?

I've been tryna drown it out,
Tryna drown the pain
Tryna drown myself
Tryna drown the shame
I've been running now, forgot how to stop so I'm running now
So tired, but I'm terrified if I stop running then thoughts will take over again and I don't have the courage now
To step in the pain, and see my reflection
No longer the same, I don't have direction
Wanting to change this is my confession
Alone and afraid, I need that connection
Somebody who really knows all of me
Somebody who really knows all of me
And chooses to love and embrace through the pain
Deep down I know there's only one who can save
Me from myself
God I am drowning and I need help
I'm reaching out my hand, I don't understand, but you promise that you can, so I'm reaching out again
Please...

And will it ever end?

And will it ever end?
And will it ever end?