Patient Video (MV)

Trying to be patient with myself
Trying to not dwell on my slow, slow progress
And every time I pick myself back up
I'm saying in a soft voice in the dark
This is the last time I go down like this
And I, I learned the hard way
Oh my mind is kind of a mess
Oh and I, I'm learning every day
Oh that I'm a work in progress
So I'm trying to be patient
And I'm trying to go slow
I'm trying to give nothing but time
And nothing but love
To my heart when it needs it the most
I'm trying to be patient, I'm trying to be patient
I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be
I'm trying to be more than what I am
Have a life, have a goal, have a plan
Exceeding expectations, not giving explanations
For why I've let you down again
And even when someone gives me love
I can't even open up
It's like I don't trust this, all of this kindness
'Cause nobody functional would love the unlovable
And I, I learned the hard way
Oh my mind is kind of a mess
Oh and I, I'm learning every day
Oh that I'm a work in progress
So I'm trying to be patient
And I'm trying to go slow
I'm trying to give nothing but time
And nothing but love
To my heart when it needs it the most
I'm trying to be patient, I'm trying to be patient
I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be
The voices in the dark
They say, they say I'm not enough
I'm trying to not hear them
And I'm trying to not fear them
The voices in my head
They scream in colour, black and red
I'm trying to not see it
And I'm trying to not believe it
I'm trying to be patient
And I'm trying to go slow
I'm trying to give nothing but time
And nothing but love
To my heart when it needs it the most
I'm trying to forgive
The others and myself
I'm trying to be kind to a soul that is mine
Heal hard and heal well
I'm trying to be patient, I'm trying to be patient
I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be
I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be, I'm trying to be