Jide-Kun - Diary of a S.I.M.P.y Teen Lyrics

I remember days I was told I wasn't black enough
I remember days that was all couldn't tolerate
Nowadays only gets worse, ain't it bad enough
Nowadays as I grow in age, I make more mistakes
I remember days that I felt I wasn't black enough
I remember days that that feeling made me insecure
People I would imitate, hoping it would ease a way
Look into my life, I'm ashamed, I envisioned more
I remember days I was told I wasn't black enough
I remember days that was all couldn't tolerate
Nowadays... only gets worse, ain't it bad enough
Nowadays as I grow in age, I make more mistakes
I remember days that I felt I wasn't black enough
I remember days that that feeling made me insecure
People I would imitate, hoping it would ease a way
Look into my life, I'm ashamed, I just immature

Twenty-Four Seven, Twenty-Four Seven
How often I ask for repentance
That's Twenty-Four Seven
Pray to the Lord for my soul, I know I'm forgiven
Me and mama though, damn my nigga that's different
Four Hundred Ten dollars that my mama sent
I know I was begging for it, I needed to pay my rent
Told her when my check came in, I could pay her back
The devil is a liar, so am I... I'm just stating facts
Lying to a loved one isn't something that's gone break my heart
It's the ease of it... Damn, was I this way from the start
Turns out blood isn't thicker than self-preservation
6'5" still falling short of mama's expectations
Since 5, slipping through the cracks, shout out Ronald Reagan
Since 9, too far to go back, I get more complacent
Ignoring all her texts, now she calls
Feeling more than anxious
And I call this love, got me I'm thinking
This ain't love ain't it
What's your definition of, A Sacrifice
Come and spill your heart fam
Preach nigga you decide
For some niggas, it's the one guy that's gon' do the time
But for me, it's a single mother working overnights
Burnt out cause she worked a double for that overtime
Her kids wasn't hearing it
One of twenty aunties working in a uuugh
Single nursing home
You'd damn near think that RN stands for
Registered Nigerian
Working two full time jobs, still can't get a bag
Our living situation was something I couldn't grasp
Dubois was onto something, talking dual consciousness
Times that I feel that I'm African American't
Can I get the lunchables for class
Mama said we can't
What about the
How about the
What about the
What about the
Obama saying, Yes we can
I remember days I was told I was black enough
I remember days skipping church, I was acting up
I remember days of the struggle, we were down and bad
I was hungry, I would get to eat, mom would take a nap
Nowadays only gets worse, ain't it bad enough
Nowadays, karma moves fast, and it's catching up
Nowadays, people I offend just keep adding up
Face the repercussion of my sins, I ain't man enough
How to tell my momma that I prolly ain't gon graduate
Question of they year, think hard, need to contemplate
Can I bear witness to the anguish on mother's face
As she sees her first born turn into her first mistake
Take it to the f*cking grave, problems I hold deep inside
This shit ain't a f*cking game, rap to me is do or die
Everyday I battle rap, I bar myself from suicide
The nigga in the mirror unfamiliar, nigga who am I?

I remember days I was told I wasn't black enough
I remember days that was all couldn't tolerate
Nowadays only gets worse, ain't it bad enough
Nowadays as I grow in age, I make more mistakes
I remember days that I felt I wasn't black enough
I remember days that that feeling made me insecure
People I would imitate, hoping it would ease a way
Look into my life, I'm ashamed, I'm just immature