Joben - Forgive Me Lyrics

I've been overwhelmed and stressed, just waiting for a text
I've had run ins with death but I've always got the best
Spent too much time in my head, my life is just a mess
I wish that I'm dead but I might live I guess
As long I get a text because that's really all I need
She's the reason that I breathe, I'm the reason that she leaves
She's just what I need but that's what I can't get
I just really need for this bitch to want me to live
But she will never forget, she won't forget what I did
I wish she would forgive so I don't cut my wrist
I wish she would forgive so we could just move in
Because without this girl, everything feels wrong
I swear this world's off, so I just make my songs
They'll be here when I'm gone, cuz legends never die
And I know I might soon but it's not yet my time
So I'm just getting high contemplating my goodbyes
I'm not worried bout a dime, just worried bout what's mine
She's not by my side so I just wanna die
I make her wanna die so now I'm feeling guilty
Sometimes I be wishing that these pills would f*cking kill me
So I can getaway and my mind can be will free
But I always wake up and I just look like a pill fein
Sometimes I be wishing that these pills would really kill me
That these pills would really kill me