Johan - Darkness in Me Lyrics

What happened to me
Don't tell me that I've been changing
Cause I've been the same since 97 you're Barely getting to know me
And just so ya'll can stop the talking just so All you haters can see
All of the pain behind the hustle
Here goes a little story about me
See I'm not even from here
From another country
I'm from Mexico if were talking exactly
Grown in poverty
Look it up if you want B
It's really not the nicest the place that you wanna be
Nothing to look forward to might die going hungry
If not then might die from the bullets narcs dumping
Ain't no where to hide only option is running
That's why we come here were just searching for something
But some want us gone now ain't that Really something
We might as well lay down
Go ahead stop the suffering
Ain't that what ya'll want to my head the Guns pointing
Should I pull the trigger don't know Someone help me
Wouldn't be the first time I've thought About ending
I'm talking for real man I'm never pretending
Just looking for signals pray to God he Send me
If not than so long to this world full of envy
Filled with evil people who always Pretending
Just act like they love me but really they Hate me
I wish that they told me to my face they Hate me
Cause then on them time I would never Have wasted
Cause it's not as easy as pressing erase Feel like suffocating I'm in empty space
At least that's just how I've been feeling Lately
Always by myself like nobody raised me
I don't need no father cause he didn't need Me
Sorry to my momma for all the beatings
It wasn't his fault blamed it on the drinking But f*ck all that bullshit if i Ever see
That motherf*cker standing in front of me I'm gonna let him have it it's My turn to Beat
And teach him just how a woman he Should treat
Don't mean to sound evil
But that's the real me
All of the pain that I'm holding inside
I've been at my lowest no one by my side Eyes shut for too long now I Opened them Wide
Noticing some things yea I'm starting to Realize
All of the bullshit and all of the lies
Hating life on earth wanna go to the sky
But Gods telling me not yet no its not my time
I'm bout to take over no star but I'll shine
No star but I'm bright
No star but I might
Just gotta leave the negative things behind
Searching for some answers like what who and why
Will I ever get there I'll just keep on trying I'll do that with our without You by my side My circle got smaller it's gotten so tight
No space for the fakes no just wasting my time
Theres no going back no there is no rewinds
What happened to me
Don't tell me that I've been changing
Cause I've been the same since 97 you're barely getting to know me
And just so ya'll can stop the talking just so All you haters can see
All of the pain behind the hustle
That was a little story about me