John Crow - Malignant Lyrics

Um I don't know doc
It feels like I'm being beat by a rock
My chest caved in
My mind is dim
The light is gone
And now my sight is wrong
I'm seeing doubles like my mind went crazy
Feeling hazy
My heart is pumping
Thumpin thumpin I feel it i n my head
In my toes and in my breath
Nerves actin up, nah I lied its dead
I dropped a stack to book your ass
But that none of that ain't working like a broken Mac
The Apple doesn't fall far from the tree
Hand me a tissue I'm about to sneeze
But if I do my brain will pop
Blood vessels tellin me to stop
Too much drank, alot of rock
Alotta cops
Pulled up to my crib to arrest me
Told em I ain't do it they didn't believe me
Had to escape out they hands like a frisbee
Snap snap I'm awake now
It was all a dream
My girl told me it was all the weed
That got to my brain
Made me hallucinate
Now I'm tryin to remember back
Wait what was your name again?
Where am I? Have you seen my pen?
The one with the cap on it
Nah wait a minute have you seen my bread?
The one with the stack written on it
Damn
Now I'm forgetting shit
Doc look what you made me do
All of them drugs you prescribed me to
Had me feeling like a veggie
I sit at home starin at an empty TV
No wait it was a mirror with me in it
I remember it clearly
Yeah it happened last night
My girl left me
Took all my stuff then dipped
Didn't even say goodbye
She took my heart, my soul and I
Gave her everything
Got her the world and a diamond ring
She fed me all the pills
Such a thrill, at least for the moment
I walked to the dresser
Got my gun then proceeded west
Where I took a rest
Didnt feel so blessed so I sneezed
Put it to my head, let that shit beat
Blood pouring all out my nose
Called the cops, then they took me home
Now I'm here with no memory
Doc can you help me out
Then what the hell am I paying you for?
I went through hell and back and you can't even save me from it
I try my best to stray away from it
But now my soul is prayin for it
I don't wanna feel this way
But doc I'm sad to say
Life is messed up and I miss the days
When the world was just grey

Who am I?
I can't remember my name
I wake up look in the mirror can't remember my face
I see blurry shapes and color shades defining my space
I can't see clearly I need some help to hide all the pain
Erase me from the scene pencil marks on the page
Disposal of all of the mistakes you've ever made
The canvas is blank, now you got a clean slate
Time to move on