John Strepek - Justafean Lyrics

I'm just a fiend, I have a dream, it's to live until that day, I'll stay in this place
And I'll try to make something that could be seen as great, but I don't believe that this could be that
I'm trying to be me, but I can't see that wall that I'm trying to climb, it's just a mountain
I'm standing here and staring back into my own eyes, this mirror is clear, but I have this fear

I don't see that wall I'm trying to climb, it's just a mountain
I'm standing in the valley looking down at the lines, until that day, I'll stay in this place
And I'll try to make something out of this paper and this page, and I'll turn it every single day
And I'm trying to leave, but I don't know what I can see at the end of this hill

See, I'm trying to build, I'm trying to grow, you know, and I know that I'm old and I'm covered in mold
I'm just trying not to get sold to the wind for a dollar and a motherf*cking bone
Just let me go, why do I always stay, when they ask me to stay, I always f*cking cave
And they ask me to stay, I just want to go away, but I can't leave, it's like I'm tied down to this tree

At the bottom of this lake, I'm drowning in hay, the place that I'm at
And I want nothing more than change, but I can't ever leave
I'm trying to see if I can create something, one day I'll look back and then I'll say
Hey Jack, you were not such a bad man, I wish you were more like your mother and your dad

But you can't be like them, you gotta be yourself, so try not to kill yourself in the brain
Every single day, when you wish you were more than you are, just accept all of the hate
And the way that you face the world every single day, when they laugh in your face, it's totally a-okay
Just walk away, cause you have two feet, it's your job to use them to go away

Just leave, don't return, if they burned you and then laughed at you for wearing funny shoes
But you know the reason that you don't have those kicks is because you invested your time into building these bricks
That now you live within, your house is not clean, but you made it, it is yours
And now you can see that the hard work you invest in this moment right now

One day will be used to create something people may look at one day and say
Wow, how did he do it? Well, if they don't see all of the motherf*cking pain that's inside of my face
I just endure the hate, I smile and laugh, and then I walk away
And I continue to write, I try not to fight, I just use the pen and then I go up on the mic and I try