If I Could Video (MV)

Open up my heart so you could see how I truly feel
Face to face but I can't
You never made it easy to disclose all the shit that I do conceal
Call me a coward
I'm just trying to avoid the drama, to keep it real
The first 3 months was fun yeah I have to admit it
I was your man, I understood and played my position
But only in private, Lord forbid it become public
And them niggas get to know I was that nigga
I felt you was creeping
The way they hugged you, texts and dates fueled my suspicion
I felt away all you say "aren't you the nigga I'm seeing?
Okay I get it, bottom line is you don't believe me"
Playing victim when all I want to know is, are you scheming?
Making provisions incase you get bored and decide to leave me
I guess you think physical contact is only form of cheating
Now I'm a little sore cos I made you my all and got left feeling insecure
If I could tell you I would
If I could tell you I would
But I can't
Atleast not face to face
Shame you found out this way
If I could tell you I would
If I could tell you I would
But I can't
Atleast not face to face
Afraid this was the only way
You broke my heart f*ck your apology I won't accept it
I understand my pockets weren't fat enough to not be neglected
I'm not trying to be disrespectful
But your associations left you looking shallow and me disrespected
Mama said, son learn your lesson
Be weary of any girl who a junkie for attention
Like any addict she needs it constant
So when you're not around she'll gravitate towards anyone who gives her an erection
I broke my rules for you
Lost myself and I found you
That was clear error on my part
I won't say it was a waste of time but I betrayed my pride, man I was Scared
Forever and always just another catch phrase now
I wonder why I ain't never say it back
You see if you had done all this before they came into the picture and called it off
Before the shenanigans
I might have respected that
If I could tell you I would
If I could tell you I would
But I can't
Atleast not face to face
Shame you found out this way
If I could tell you I would
If I could tell you I would
But I can't
Atleast not face to face
Afraid this was the only way
If I could tell you I would
If I could tell you I would
But I can't
Atleast not face to face
Shame you found out this way
If I could tell you I would
If I could tell you I would
But I can't
Atleast not face to face
Afraid this was the only way