Jorde - lost myself Lyrics

Am I emotional
Or not available?
To be right by your side
Why can't you read my mind?
Am I responsible
For the cries I don't show?
If It'll be alright
Why do I feel so tired?
I know you want happy endings
But lately I'm tired of pretending
That all the things that you do don't cut deep
Wish I could wake from your nightmare
When we talk it's like you're not there
Do you understand you're hurting me?
How do I tell you I lost myself
I need some help
And I just want to be okay
Over obsessing about why you doubt me
It feels like hell
It drives me mad to feel this way
But how do I tell you I lost myself
I needed help
But you just get right in my way
Over obsessing about what I dealt
It's over now
I lost myself
To let you stay
Oh I let you stay
Oh I let you stay
Am I emotionless
Or just not important?
You say I love to hurt
It's so convenient
Am I indecisive
Or don't like the options
Now what does true love cost?
If it's so reckless
I know you want happy endings
But lately I'm tired of pretending
That all the things that you do don't cut deep
Wish I could wake from your nightmare
When we talk it's like you're not there
Do you understand you're hurting me?
How do I tell you I lost myself
I need some help
And I just want to be okay
Over obsessing about why you doubt me
It feels like hell
It drives me mad to feel this way
But how do I tell you I lost myself
I needed help
But you just get right in my way
Over obsessing about what I dealt
It's over now
I lost myself
To let you stay
Oh I let you stay
Oh I let you stay