Jose Xavier - Might Not Be Alive Lyrics

Don't nobody understand
And I'll never be the man
They vision for me too jaded to see
That I got the upper hand
And without it won't nothing pan
I just gotta keep working at it. Shit
And I'll take the blame for what's blocking my blessings
For most of my life I been in this depression
Got too much in life I wish we could do different
My chances in heaven like one in a million
Them fights with my mama
Lord knows, I regret it
She say she forgive me
It's fine if she didn't
She always said how I'd get pushed to my limit
Already in hell
Ain't no need for repenting
Admit it
I might not be alive
I might not be alive
See we not that much different you and I
Young and searching for a high
Should be searching for the signs
Often wonder who am I cause
I might not be alive
I might not be alive
See we not that much different you and I
Young and searching for a high
Should be searching for the signs
Often wonder who am I
Lord I need a blessing
Lil' something to pan out
I been working in hopes that I stand out
Couch to couch, hard to feel like a man now
Grandma said don't no man got his head down
Fall depressed anytime that the bread down
Only fear is that I'ma get left out
See my bitch on the gram in a wed gown
Get replaced from the life I had planned out
I'm too depressed, I'm broke as hell
My life's a mess
My daddy left. Well never there
Was married when he met my mom
And asked and if she'll abort the kid
But thanks to god she never did
And that's the reason that I'm here
Deceitfulness what led me here
I need a glass of ever clear
That's big enough for all the tears
So I can drown in all the fears and sing
I might not be alive
I might not be alive
See we not that much different you and I
Young and searching for a high
Should be searching for the signs
Often wonder who am I cause
I might not be alive
I might not be alive
See we not that much different you and I
Young and searching for a high
Should be searching for the signs
Often wonder who am I