Josh. - Open Letter Lyrics

My stars align the moment the moon rise
I'm on the grind soon as the sun set
I don't claim to be one of the good guys
So if I disappoint you can't be upset
Mixed drinks and mixed feelings
I'm still in em head still spinning
I got 10 reasons to keep drinking
Ill find one to stay alive lord willing
You heart breaking bitches is forbidden
I hope your neck break and your soul stiffen
Dishonesty is the reason i scorn women
Suppose to have my back you for sure didn't
I hold it down I don't hold a grudge
Even if you switched up imma show you love
Lean on me like a crutch Imma hold you up I'm one you can trust Loyal to my blood
Even if I can't always say about you
Even tho I can admit it's ain't the same without you
When you deserted with full intentions of hurting
We both know that the purpose was for me to go insane without you
Little did she know that I thrive on pain
Been froze my heart been iced my veins
First love doesn't cost then the prices change
And there's probably more at loss than i thought was gained
How quickly 365 can disappear
2017 was suppose to be my year
Shouldnt let you get close enough as to interfere
That's what you did
I still hear All your lies whispered in my ears
But I doubt you care
Lesson learned
Bitch tried to crush my dreams like she did hers
I see failure in your eyes as you project your fear
Now that the flame has died let the Bridges burn
New persona who tf is this?
I don't think we met before
You're easy to forget
It's With all disrespect it was fully my intent
Save ya breath I don't apologize for shit suck a dick you make me sick
I'm going hard now I think that's apparent
And beginning to cut down on all this time that I've been sharing
I've gotta be more selfish in a cold ass world full of lions and tigers i swear I cannot bear it
It's scary
I hope this open letter helps to paint a picture
And detail my transformation to a angry nigga
If you haven't caught on yet i cannot babysit ya
Until we meet again my sincerest wishes