Jtl - Its Up To Me Lyrics

Was just a kid in the back of classes
Didn't need them but I thought I would look cool with glasses
Took the old fashion and made it new fashion
Misunderstood cause I didn't walk with captions
I appreciate the bullies cause they made me
Wasn't bullet proof so I'm hurt by what they say to me
Turned a nightmare into a day thing
Started seeing who I could be from the daydreams
I'm a outfit because I couldn't fit into the crowd
Didn't have a lot of trust because too many let me down
Tell me how somebody figure how to flow when in a drought
Who'd of thought I would've pulled hope out of buckets full of doubt
Pacing feel like I got a need for speed
If I don't have a purpose than what's the point of reach
I care a little more about the freedom than the greed
I done finally started seeing something grow from all the seeds
I done got a little closer to the role model me
Burning my bridges from who I use to be
There's nobody in my way cause of who I am
It's up to me
To have enough
It's up to me
To get out the rough
It's up to me
I can't make this up
It's up to me
Who gone show me love
I was really hoping I would be the guy to get big blessing before a big lesson
Turns out I had to be the guy to get a really big lesson before a big blessing
Relations failed on me
Those tried to throw dirt on me
Most of those closest turned the cheek instead of turning the other cheek
Damage had me looking for exits
Life ain't quite turned out as expected
Who'd of thought that words could be deadly weapons
With every new chapter I garner perspective
The high roads not my favorite
High roads started impatience
High roads made paybacks feel wasted
But if I had acted it probably ruin a special occasion
Burning my bridges from who I use to be
There's nobody in my way cause of who I am
It's up to me
To have enough
It's up to me
To get out the rough
It's up to me
I can't make this up
It's up to me
Who gone show me love