Julia Calvin - Disco Ball Lyrics

There's a reason why I like the mountains
'Cause nobody can reach me there
Something 'bout them makes me feel safe
And I don't have to gasp for air

In the city lights I'm a shape-shifter
Indulging everyone but myself
There's a reason why I like the mountains
'Cause nobody can reach me there

You'd think that there's a limit
To the people-pleasing spell
Where fight or flight'll kick in
To come make you save yourself
But

I'm just a hundred different pieces
Of what everybody else says
Just a reflection, but I'm gleamin'
Spinnin' in the darkness
A disco ball
A free for all
I wish I had my own opinions
But I'm spinnin' in the darkness
I'm everybody else's
Spinnin' in the darkness

There's a reason why I stuck around so long
When all you did was punish me
Sometimes you need pain to make you strong
But I just turned the other cheek
I internalized every fault you'd find
Until my friends said you'd crossed a line
There's a reason why I stuck around so long
When all you did was punish me

You'd think that there's a limit
To the people-pleasing spell
Where fight or flight'll kick in
To come make you save yourself
But

I'm just a hundred different pieces
Of what everybody else says
Just a reflection, but I'm gleamin'
Spinnin' in the darkness
A disco ball
A free for all
Slowly becoming your opinions
And spinnin' in the darkness
I'm everybody else's
Spinnin' in the darkness

I never wanted to be still
But hey, I could do with a little free will

'Cause I might be a hundred broken pieces
But I wanna be my own mess
See my reflection in the mirror
Even in the darkness
A disco ball
But hangin' tall
I wanna trust my own opinions
Over everybody else's
I wanna be my own mess
Spinnin' in the darkness