Every time I close my eyes
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
On my knees I prayed four times daily
God if you're out there give me a sign, I just want you to tell me
Everything's gonna be fine, Know everybody got problems
But will you help me work out mine?
Cuz my mind's one thought away from snappin'
Tryna keep from relapsin'
To the past where bad things happened
Rapping for a good while, Thinking back I was a good child
Seen a lot of action cuz the hood's wild
It's overwhelming with pain, anybody telling you different
Didn't hide scars for a couple days
Mother didn't go away far for a couple days
Left no food, had to starve for a couple days
Step pop used to punish us in vicious ways
Ten minute ass whippings just to go and play
Would you like it if your mother's lover loved to hunt you
Down, and make your skin welt from the belt buckle?
She was unaware but we thought she was cool with it
New scars, old clothes, sent to school with it
And kids can be so cruel
Cuz we never had name brand clothes
We had to fight everyday in school
I got a lot on my chest
When I was young I had nothing, and still got a lot of it left
Hate to have pockets lighter than breath
Nowadays I get migraines and Doc says a lot of it's stress
So I gotta wake up with the roosters
Cuz I'll be damned if I let my past be my children's future
Broke, bummy and poke fun of it's no wonder
Them n***as provoked me the wrong day
And I poked one of em up
Every time I close my eyes
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
As I sits and weave the perfect tapestry of the life of me
(Shit) It might be purposely enlightening me
Each day is like somebody got a knife to me
And they're tryna cage me in but I'm fighting free
Mete Jones is a winner though
But it's like tryna make clothes out of dinner rolls
(Huh) My mama hooked up with the wrong dude
Is that why I seem to make all the wrong moves?
I wanna tighten that but I got the wrong tools
I'm on the right track but I got the wrong shoes
It's like cleats on concrete
Yet and still I got the ability to walk straight cuz I'm me!
Climbing up a mountain, life in a sack
Five kids in my arms and my wife on my back
(Damn) but what about my first born daughter
Been years since she died and it hurts more sorta
(Hurt so bad) I'm tryna stay dry with a napkin
I build fortresses but they keep collapsin'
I'm getting older, time is elapsin'
Who can I blame if I'm in my path man?
(If I'm in my own path)
I got blood on my hands it was me or them
God forgave me but I couldn't see it then
And the devil's laughin' I can see his grin
F*ck him! Somebody give me a pen!
So I could write a love letter to wifey
Thanking her, I'm going to Heaven with her beside me
I love you mom and so you know I know you was lost then
An orphan, couldn't help the world you was tossed in
And to all my beautiful kids I love 'em to death
And I'm'a keep it moving till I run out of breath
(Huhh) And yes, life is a test
And it's stressful, I guess you'll cross
And the more you learn the less you're lost
Every time I close my eyes
(Every time I close my eyes)
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
(Sky turns grey, ooh)
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
(The rain is coming)
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
(Why my loved ones, leave me to suffer)
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
Sometimes when I'm in pain, I've got to find my own way
I won't give up, I'm gon' get up, I'm tryna find my own place
And when I close my eyes, I start to realize
That I am strong, I'm gon' live on and make the best of my life (Oooh)
Every time I close my eyes
(Every time)
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
(Ooh)
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
(Clouds appear)
And the quietness is the sound of fear
(Yeah)
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
(My tears)
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
(To suffer)
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
Just Jonez - I'm So Lost Lyrics
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Every time I close my eyes
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
On my knees I prayed four times daily
God if you're out there give me a sign, I just want you to tell me
Everything's gonna be fine, Know everybody got problems
But will you help me work out mine?
Cuz my mind's one thought away from snappin'
Tryna keep from relapsin'
To the past where bad things happened
Rapping for a good while, Thinking back I was a good child
Seen a lot of action cuz the hood's wild
It's overwhelming with pain, anybody telling you different
Didn't hide scars for a couple days
Mother didn't go away far for a couple days
Left no food, had to starve for a couple days
Step pop used to punish us in vicious ways
Ten minute ass whippings just to go and play
Would you like it if your mother's lover loved to hunt you
Down, and make your skin welt from the belt buckle?
She was unaware but we thought she was cool with it
New scars, old clothes, sent to school with it
And kids can be so cruel
Cuz we never had name brand clothes
We had to fight everyday in school
I got a lot on my chest
When I was young I had nothing, and still got a lot of it left
Hate to have pockets lighter than breath
Nowadays I get migraines and Doc says a lot of it's stress
So I gotta wake up with the roosters
Cuz I'll be damned if I let my past be my children's future
Broke, bummy and poke fun of it's no wonder
Them n***as provoked me the wrong day
And I poked one of em up
Every time I close my eyes
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
As I sits and weave the perfect tapestry of the life of me
(Shit) It might be purposely enlightening me
Each day is like somebody got a knife to me
And they're tryna cage me in but I'm fighting free
Mete Jones is a winner though
But it's like tryna make clothes out of dinner rolls
(Huh) My mama hooked up with the wrong dude
Is that why I seem to make all the wrong moves?
I wanna tighten that but I got the wrong tools
I'm on the right track but I got the wrong shoes
It's like cleats on concrete
Yet and still I got the ability to walk straight cuz I'm me!
Climbing up a mountain, life in a sack
Five kids in my arms and my wife on my back
(Damn) but what about my first born daughter
Been years since she died and it hurts more sorta
(Hurt so bad) I'm tryna stay dry with a napkin
I build fortresses but they keep collapsin'
I'm getting older, time is elapsin'
Who can I blame if I'm in my path man?
(If I'm in my own path)
I got blood on my hands it was me or them
God forgave me but I couldn't see it then
And the devil's laughin' I can see his grin
F*ck him! Somebody give me a pen!
So I could write a love letter to wifey
Thanking her, I'm going to Heaven with her beside me
I love you mom and so you know I know you was lost then
An orphan, couldn't help the world you was tossed in
And to all my beautiful kids I love 'em to death
And I'm'a keep it moving till I run out of breath
(Huhh) And yes, life is a test
And it's stressful, I guess you'll cross
And the more you learn the less you're lost
Every time I close my eyes
(Every time I close my eyes)
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
(Sky turns grey, ooh)
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
(The rain is coming)
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
(Why my loved ones, leave me to suffer)
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
Sometimes when I'm in pain, I've got to find my own way
I won't give up, I'm gon' get up, I'm tryna find my own place
And when I close my eyes, I start to realize
That I am strong, I'm gon' live on and make the best of my life (Oooh)
Every time I close my eyes
(Every time)
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
(Ooh)
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
(Clouds appear)
And the quietness is the sound of fear
(Yeah)
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
(My tears)
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
(To suffer)
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
On my knees I prayed four times daily
God if you're out there give me a sign, I just want you to tell me
Everything's gonna be fine, Know everybody got problems
But will you help me work out mine?
Cuz my mind's one thought away from snappin'
Tryna keep from relapsin'
To the past where bad things happened
Rapping for a good while, Thinking back I was a good child
Seen a lot of action cuz the hood's wild
It's overwhelming with pain, anybody telling you different
Didn't hide scars for a couple days
Mother didn't go away far for a couple days
Left no food, had to starve for a couple days
Step pop used to punish us in vicious ways
Ten minute ass whippings just to go and play
Would you like it if your mother's lover loved to hunt you
Down, and make your skin welt from the belt buckle?
She was unaware but we thought she was cool with it
New scars, old clothes, sent to school with it
And kids can be so cruel
Cuz we never had name brand clothes
We had to fight everyday in school
I got a lot on my chest
When I was young I had nothing, and still got a lot of it left
Hate to have pockets lighter than breath
Nowadays I get migraines and Doc says a lot of it's stress
So I gotta wake up with the roosters
Cuz I'll be damned if I let my past be my children's future
Broke, bummy and poke fun of it's no wonder
Them n***as provoked me the wrong day
And I poked one of em up
Every time I close my eyes
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
As I sits and weave the perfect tapestry of the life of me
(Shit) It might be purposely enlightening me
Each day is like somebody got a knife to me
And they're tryna cage me in but I'm fighting free
Mete Jones is a winner though
But it's like tryna make clothes out of dinner rolls
(Huh) My mama hooked up with the wrong dude
Is that why I seem to make all the wrong moves?
I wanna tighten that but I got the wrong tools
I'm on the right track but I got the wrong shoes
It's like cleats on concrete
Yet and still I got the ability to walk straight cuz I'm me!
Climbing up a mountain, life in a sack
Five kids in my arms and my wife on my back
(Damn) but what about my first born daughter
Been years since she died and it hurts more sorta
(Hurt so bad) I'm tryna stay dry with a napkin
I build fortresses but they keep collapsin'
I'm getting older, time is elapsin'
Who can I blame if I'm in my path man?
(If I'm in my own path)
I got blood on my hands it was me or them
God forgave me but I couldn't see it then
And the devil's laughin' I can see his grin
F*ck him! Somebody give me a pen!
So I could write a love letter to wifey
Thanking her, I'm going to Heaven with her beside me
I love you mom and so you know I know you was lost then
An orphan, couldn't help the world you was tossed in
And to all my beautiful kids I love 'em to death
And I'm'a keep it moving till I run out of breath
(Huhh) And yes, life is a test
And it's stressful, I guess you'll cross
And the more you learn the less you're lost
Every time I close my eyes
(Every time I close my eyes)
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
(Sky turns grey, ooh)
And the quietness is the sound of fear
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
(The rain is coming)
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
(Why my loved ones, leave me to suffer)
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
Sometimes when I'm in pain, I've got to find my own way
I won't give up, I'm gon' get up, I'm tryna find my own place
And when I close my eyes, I start to realize
That I am strong, I'm gon' live on and make the best of my life (Oooh)
Every time I close my eyes
(Every time)
I get lost in my thoughts and it hurts my mind
(Ooh)
Sky turns grey and the clouds appear
(Clouds appear)
And the quietness is the sound of fear
(Yeah)
The rain starts to fall so it hides my tears
(My tears)
But why my loved ones leave me here to suffer
(To suffer)
Why I have to suffer?
I am so lost
Writer: Damian Jones, Darrin Williams, Demetrius jones
Copyright: Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Copyright: Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid