Gone for too long to be tryna hop on
I'm in a different mode
With some different cologne
It's funny how when you grown
You don't even smell the same
Or desire the same thing, dang seasons change
I wish I was a better man, I know I am but it's still hard to see
Cuz I'm so used to me and my thinking
Wondering will I ever erase it. Or a least replace it
With something that's productive or constructive
Cause right now it's just counter and it appears like I'm a coward
I know it's more, cuz I can't afford to believe in the standard or be entrap
With the status quo, I ain't that prideful but that's the only thing that I boast
Sometimes I'm overthinking, the same way you over drinking
Swimming in my thoughts of dark, so careful where I gotta leave my mark
It's crazy how you focus more on your job than what's in your heart
The what should never be more important than the why
That's how you become a slave to what's in your mind
It becomes idolatry when you start focusing on the dollar tree
Can I ever be free?
From everything I know
That's killing my soul
Say one day I'll know
Can I ever be free?
From everything I know
That's killing my soul
Say one day I'll know
I feel like fighting it's so inviting
I mean cuz it's so enticing
Making me believe in make believe
Like can u imagine me
Achieving everything I wanted
And not even having to pawn it
Come on I mean I'll hop on it
But it aint that real and I ain't made of steel
Like tell me will my heart ever heal
Not just from what I feel
But from what I've been told, like how deep is my soul
Like how much can it hold. Will I ever let go?
Is it possible for me to just grow?
Live with no regrets and promise to forget
All the time that was spent
Tryna reminiscence on moments that were never meant
To carry this long, can you ever move on from being alone
Or knowing what was causing otherwise cuz I keep on falling
Dang near, boy they got me stalling
Because something was keeping me from going all in
Now they got ya boy just pausing, I'm doing it often
I guess I'm getting lost in the translation & separation it's causing
An anxiety for the notoriety, not knowing I'm an outcast to society
So they keep pushing individualism
Till you make it your own prison
And make you think it's your decision
Not knowing it was leading you that way
Creating an appetite for abundance of things
Without the necessary people who initiate change
Can I ever be free?
From everything I know
That's killing my soul
Say one day I'll know
Can I ever be free?
From everything little thing
That's killing my soul
Say one day I'll know
I gotta know
Now I ask what's my desire?
Is it to run my own empire?
Is it to have the status within the city?
Or to run New York just like Diddy
Why does it have to be a 50/50?
Why can't it be all of that, there's enough down there
You just gotta kill the slack and attack
And It's here for you, but you gotta leave fear behind
Cuz it'll corrupt your design
Of what your suppose build
And have you paying higher bills. For real
Waiting decades for it to pass
Then eventually your dreams are stuck in your past
And you can't even remember the last
Time you felt great or had something to look forward to go toward
Now your life just consist of being on a board and being bored
I'm sorry but I can't afford to compromise on certain things
To remain in good standing with man
Sometimes I rather be stranded
And doing His will, than taking what's handed
Or attractive. You don't get it
I'm only willing to do the work
Because I know the worth
Only deal with the pain
Because I know the gain
Cool with droughts because I smell the rain
Gimme seeds cuz I expecting harvest
Just gimme Your bread, so I'm not starving
Gimme Your heart so I'm strong
Gimme Your mind so I'll know
That without you I'll never grow
Can I ever be free?
From everything I know
That's killing my soul
Say one day I'll know
Can I ever be free?
From everything little thing
That's killing my soul
Say one day I will know
Who the Son sets free is free indeed
Who the Son sets free is free indeed
And where the Spirit of the Lord is
There's liberty, so I'm free indeed
I'm free indeed
Took me a while to finally see
Cuz I was blinded by uncertainty
But I'm free indeed I'm free indeed
Cuz where the Spirit of the Lord is
There's liberty, I'm free indeed
I'm free indeed
Now God you can have all of me