Alexander's Letter. (Outro) Video (MV)

I hope y'all feel this man
I got my own story to tell
Yeah
Momma
Growing up I never had my pops looking out for me
One boy growing up with bigger dreams
Never having you around really scared me mentally and it left me with a lot of doubt
Thinking what's really out there for me
And all this pain I build up in the years has left me lost
I picked my wins but my vision is really what I lost
A pill for self destruction and obsession when I fall
Who's really going to be there when I call?
Every dawn, writing poems
I can't control my own emotions
I'm out of focus
A token to a Totem during my inner solstice
I feel like I'm out of my mind and can't fathom my own existence
Whether I live or I die
The answer is never clear
Death is deceiving my ears
Demons saying I should leave it all here
Will heaven appear
Who knows
My only competition is fear, you know
That you do so much better
As I sit here alone and I write you this letter
That you do so much better
As I sit here alone and I write you this letter
That you do so much better
As I sit here alone and I write you this letter
Pray that you do so much better
As I sit here alone
I vow to never make the same mistakes that my father made
A letter to express the words i can never say
You're my blessing that god gave and I can never let you down
You and your sister have so much to accomplish
This letter is something for both of you to look back and know
I'm always here
So never feel like you're alone
You will push mountains, be everything that I never could
Sometimes I wish I had this growing up
You're too young to understand now
Or how daddy has to always be gone
Or the fact that I'm always locked up in a room recording
See this is a dream I had when I was a kid and all I ever wanted to do was to make this happen
But sometimes in life you know god, gives us some cards that we're dealt with
You know along the way I've made some mistakes that I manned up to
But no one has the right to judge me you have no accountability
Only god can
I'm just here to enjoy the ride
Daddy loves you
And I know you're going to accomplish everything you've ever wanted
And I'm here to guide you all the way through
This is God's Plan