JØZ - Momma. / This Is Reality. Lyrics

The more I try to help you though it never works
You pop another pill because that's all you've ever known
With all this pain running through I know you're feeling low
I know you wanna leave momma, please don't let us go You have so much to look forward to I can't let you leave
Alexander needs his grandma so don't do this for me
In the end the only thing that matters is what you believe
But I can't leave my kids knowing they'll be living in grief
But yet here you are
Leaving us with scars
Scars
I just sit and wonder my mind is running but isn't right
I'm tired of hiding how I feel inside
I've been distant, and along the way I lost my vision
I had the passion, the talent, and I never lost commitment
I wish I knew what happened when I got lost in the world
I guess I felt my family needed me more
I gave up everything so I could make sure my family's secure
Now I only dream of what could've been, my demons laugh as it burns
So slow
So slow
So slow
So slow
So slow
As I pick up a pen, and all these emotions run thin
No one really cares on how I'm feeling within
Yet I sacrifice so much just to hardly exist
Yet I sacrifice so much just to hardly exist
This is poetic justice, pain with now no justice
26 years but I never once ever adjusted
This is the end of it all with no trophies on the wall
The end of it all