Gag Order Album Lyrics by Kesha

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Something To Believe In

You never know that you need
Something to believe in when you know it all
You never know that you need
Something to believe in

You never know that you need
Something to believe in when you know it all
You never know that you need
Something to believe in

You never know that you need
Something to believe in when you know it all (something to believe in)
You never know that you need
Something to believe in (something to believe in)

You never know that you need
Something to believe in when you know it all (something to believe in)
You never know that you need
Something to believe in (something to believe in)

Mind's been racing like a stallion
While I watch it all collapsing
Kill the chaos find the balance
'Round we go, around we go
Greatness, just a shade of madness
Ego, just a face of sadness
Pain is just part of the package
Around we go, around we go

I sit and watch the pieces fall
I don't know who I am at all

You never know that you need (I need)
Something to believe in when you know it all (it all)
You never know that you need
Something to believe in

You never know that you need (you need)
Something to believe in when you know it all (it all)
You never know that you need
Something to believe in

You never know that you need
Something to believe in when you know it all (something to believe in)
You never know that you need
Something to believe in (something to believe in)

You never know that you need
Something to believe in when you know it all (something to believe in)
You never know that you need
Something to believe in (something to believe in)

I'm so embarrassing
So used to abandoning myself
I can't believe I'm still alive

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Eat the Acid

You don't want to be changed like it changed me
You don't want to be changed like it changed me
You don't want to be changed like it changed me
You don't want to be changed like it changed me

Been dodging gods I didn't want
(You don't want to be changed like it changed me)
I'd gotten used to being lost
(You don't want to be changed like it changed me)
I never felt like I belonged
(You don't want to be changed like it changed me)
Turns out my mama wasn't wrong
(You don't want to be changed like it changed me)

You said, "Don't ever eat the acid
If you don't wanna to be changed like it changed me"
You said, "All the edges got so jagged now"
Everything you saw then can't be unseen
Last night I saw it all
Last night I talked to God

(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me

I swear to God, I closed my eyes
I heard a voice inside my mind
The Universe said, "Now's your time"
And told me, "Everything's alright"

You said, "Don't ever eat the acid
If you don't want to be changed like it changed me"
You said, "All the edges got so jagged now"
Everything you saw then can't be unseen
You said, "Don't ever eat the acid
If you don't want to be changed like it changed me"
You said, "All the edges got so jagged now"
Everything you saw then can't be unseen
Last night I saw it all
Last night I talked to God

(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me

I searched for answers all my life
Dead in the dark, I saw the light
I am the one that I've been fighting the whole time
Hate has no place in the divine

In the divine
In the divine
In the divine
In the divine
Place in the divine

You said, "Don't ever eat the acid
If you don't want to be changed like it changed me"
You said, "All the edges got so jagged now"
Everything you saw then can't be unseen
You said that, "The Universe is magic
Just open up your eyes, the signs are waiting"
You said, "Don't ever eat the acid
If you don't want to be changed like it changed me"
Last night I saw it all
Last night I talked to God

(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me
(Ah-ah, ah-ah) you don't wanna be changed like it changed me

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Living In My Head

Living in my head
Living in my head
Living in my head

Oh, I don't wanna be here anymore
Stuck inside my head here anymore
Stuck inside my head here anymore
Oh, I don't wanna be scared anymore
So scared of myself here anymore
Scared of everyone else anymore

Get me out of my head
Out of my head
Out of my head
Out of my head
When's it gonna end?
When's it gonna end?
When's it gonna end?

Oh, I don't wanna be here anymore
Sick of all the chaos anymore
Crawling out my skin here on the floor
Oh, I'm so sick of myself, you don't know
I don't wanna be here all alone
I don't wanna do this on my own

Get me out of my head
Out of my head
Out of my head
Out of my head
When's it gonna end?
When's it gonna end?
When's it gonna end? (So f*cking exhausting)

I'm so f*cking insecure
I just can't stand it
God, I hate myself
Sometimes I can't get out my head
Sometimes I can't get out my head

I'm so f*cking, I just can't stand it
God, I hate myself
Got to stop comparing
Oh, when's this gonna end?

Living in my head
Living in my head
So f*cking exhausting
When's it gonna end?
When's it gonna end?
So f*cking exhausting (I'm out of my head)
Out of my head

When's it gonna end?
I'm so f*cking insecure, I just can't stand it
God, I hate myself
Gotta sell my name and go all in

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Fine Line

There's a fine line I've been walking
And trying to balance is exhausting
This is where you f*ckers pushed me
Don't be surprised if shit gets ugly

All the doctors and lawyers cut the tongue out of my mouth
I've been hiding my anger, but bitch look at me now
I'm at the top of the mountain, with a gun to my head
Am I bigger than Jesus, or better off dead?

There's a fine line between genius and crazy
There's a fine line between broken and breaking
Spent my whole life tryna to change what they're saying about me
Sick of walking that fine line
Fine line between selling out and being bought
Fine line between famous and being forgot
It's time I'm coming down off of the cross
I'm sick of walking that fine line

I feel safest in the silence
And I'm so goddamn sick of fighting
The truth keeps roaring like a lion
Yeah, that'll be the cross I'll die on

The years keep on dragging, I'm at the end of my rope
The noose gets tighter and tighter
I'm tasting blood in my throat
Don't f*cking call me a fighter
Don't f*cking call me a joke
You have no f*cking idea
Trust me you'll never know

There's a fine line between hope and delusion
Between what's right and what we've just gotten used to
My whole life I've had something to prove to you
I'm sick of walking that fine line
Fine line between surviving and living
And God some things never should be forgiven
Guess what I'm sick of pretending for you

Fine line
Fine line
Fine line

Fine line
Fine line
Fine line

This life was never mine
This life was never mine
This life was never mine

I cant keep wasting time
I cant keep wasting time
I cant keep wasting time

There's a fine line between what matters and doesn't
Between letting go and giving up
Between happy and stupid as f*ck

There's a fine line between what's entertaining
And what's just exploiting the pain
But hey look at all the money we made off me

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Only Love Can Save Us Now

Tell a bitch I can't jump this, Evel Knievel
I'm 'bout to run you down the church and the steeple
Been baptized in Hollywood in the Cathedral
The power of Christ compels me, I'm a demon
Keep singing hallelujah nothing can save us
Goddamn perfection in his image, he made us
Yeah, Jesus take the wheel, I'm going through phases
The bitch I was, she dead, her grave desecrated

Only love can save us now
Only love can save us now
Only love can save us now
(Oh, Lord, save me, please God, I need your love now)
Only love can save us now
(Oh, Lord, save me, please God, I need your love now)

The resurrections here, can you believe it?
I'm 'bout to blow your f*cking head through the ceiling
I'm getting sued because my mom has been tweeting
Don't f*cking tell me that I'm dealing with reason
Yeah, I'm possessive
Maybe I'm possessed, bitch
F*ck yeah, I'm selfish
Shut up, eat your breakfast
I would kill for secrets
All mine been leaking
I don't got no shame left
Baby, that's my freedom

Only love can save us now
Only love can save us now (get the holy water)
Only love can save us now
(Oh, Lord, save me, please God, I need your love now)
Only love can save us now
(Oh, Lord, save me, oh, please God, I need your love now)
Only love can save us now
(Oh, Lord, oh, Lord, save us, we need your love now)
Only love can save us now
(Oh, Lord, save me, oh, please God, we need your love now)
Only love can save us now

Yeah, I'm possessive
Maybe I'm possessed, bitch
F*ck yeah, I'm selfish
Shut up, eat your breakfast
I would kill for secrets
All of mine been leaking
I don't got no shame left
Baby, that's my freedom

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All I Need Is You

I think that love is beyond your control
And the most basic thing which is dangerous in you
Is the possibility of love
Because if you are possessed by love
You can go even against the whole world

Everything gets so chaotic sometimes
I've been so caught up in my own shit
Tell me that you'll live forever
'Cause I've taken years for granted
And it always feels like the first time
But now the greys are starting to show
Your love might break my heart harder than being alone

Oh, I'm falling through the galaxy, your hand's always in mine
All my dreams have come and gone a half a million times
I don't need much, but there's one thing I can't lose
All I need is you

I can have all of the cocaine and the pills at every party
But who's the one that's gonna care if I can make it home?
I can be the soundtrack and the punchline to the story
But you know parts of me nobody else will ever know
Oh, how do I even imagine describing life without the sun?
How do some things seem to end just after they've begun?

Falling through the galaxy, your hand's always in mine
All my dreams have come and gone a half a million times
I don't need much, but there but there's one thing I can't lose
All I need is you

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The Drama

I crawl in bed, close my eyes
But I never can sleep
There's a violence in the silence
And it's coming for me
Oh, the paranoia, it's creeping closer
Swimming in my head like a Great White
All I need anything
To distract me from this empty feeling

Build me up
To feel the fall and
Fall in love
To break my heart
I'm bored and I'm broken
I'm self destroying
At least it's something to do
Oh, the drama of it all
Oh, the drama of it all

I desperately wanna think
People are good
But if you'd seen the things I'd seen
I don't know if you would
A Friday night in, I'll get too high and
Keep checking my pulse, am I dead yet?
All I need is anything
To distract me from this empty feeling

Build me up
To feel the fall and
Fall in love
To break my heart
I'm bored and I'm broken
I'm self destroying
At least it's something to do
Oh, the drama of it all
Oh, the drama of it all
It's not just for the fun of it
Are we having fun yet?

Build me up
To feel the fall and
Fall in love
Break my heart
I'm bored and I'm broken
I'm self destroying
At least it's something to do
Oh, the drama of it all
Oh, the drama of it

I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat
In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat
In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat (I wanna be sedated)
In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat
In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat

In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat (I wanna be sedated)
In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat
In the next life, I wanna come back (I wanna be sedated)
As a house cat, as a house cat
In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat (I wanna be sedated)
In the next life, I wanna come back (twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go)
As a house cat, as a house cat (I wanna be sedated)
In the next life, I wanna come back
As a house cat, as a house cat (I wanna be sedated)

I wanna be sedated
Just get me to the airport and put me on a plane
As a house cat, as a house cat
I'ma sit and play in the sun, I'll be a f*cking cute sun of a gun

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Ram Dass Interlude

Its garbage is art

Well, do you approve of me?
Do you like me? Am I good enough?
Well, do you approve of me?
Do you like me? Am I good enough?

Well, do you approve of me?
Do you like me? Am I good enough?
Well, do you approve of me?
Do you like me? Am I good enough?

Have I achieved enough?
Have I achieved enough?
Have I achieved enough?
Have I achieved enough?

And then there comes a period where you've just gone through enough
And the space starts to, that little blue sky starts to develop
And you start to identify with the blue sky instead of the cloud
You flicker at first
And then you start to release

And often in the release there is a closing of the heart
Because you don't want to get hurt again
And you've gotta allow that
That's still a part of the grief reaction
And a lot of you are still holding on to grief from previous hurts
And then comes the time when you start to realize
You'd rather be vulnerable and be hurt than be living dead

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Too Far Gone

Nothing's set in stone
Not even the diamond wrapped around my finger
We're only getting older
And holding onto hope it only makes it lonelier

Love comes with pain
I don't know why
My whole life

Too far gone and I'll never come back
Slipping through my fingers, damn, it's going fast
Trying to find some meaning, something that lasts
Am I missing you or am I missing pieces of me?
Am I missing you or am I missing who I used to be?

With this pride, I won't apologize for how I'm feeling
With this ego, I won't be the only one that's bleeding
Maybe all this hate I'm holding isn't helping me but
I'm stubborn, it's mine to keep

Sometimes I add up all my wasted time
Sometimes I just like seeing grown men cry
Think I killed the part of me that I like

Too far gone and I'll never come back
I wish I'd never learned that nothing really lasts
I'll never be the same, in a world that's gone mad
Am I missing you or am I missing pieces of me?
Am I missing you or am I missing who I used to be?
Am I missing you or am I missing pieces of me?

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Peace & Quiet

I'm the pendulum of emotions
Swinging back and forth, I'm up and down
Like waves in the ocean

I got that kind of light
Catches orbit
Pull you in but need my space
So f*cking annoying

Maybe I should learn to be alone
Maybe I could do this on my own (uh huh)
Maybe I should be a little less
I'm so f*cking extra, it's a mess (uh huh)

Oh, maybe I should stop and take a breath
Maybe I'm not making any sense (uh huh)
But I would be lying if I said
I could do peace and quiet

Loving me is running into a house
That's burning down, baby
Honestly, make it out alive
And you'll get the best of me

So get into it or get the f*ck out
So get into it or get the f*ck out
So get into it or get the f*ck out

I am a Gravitron, always spinning
Maybe this is normal
Goddamn, who am I kidding?

Holy Spirit, am I a demon?
Baby, I'm the hero
And I'm the f*cking villain

Maybe I should learn to be alone
Maybe I could do this on my own, uh huh
Maybe I could stop and take a breath
Maybe I could love a little less, uh huh

Who's really making all the rules?
Everybody talking through their tooths, uh huh
I would be lying if I said
I could do peace and quiet

Loving me is running into a house
That's burning down, baby
Honestly, make it out alive
And you'll get the best of me

So get into it or get the f*ck out
So get into it or get the f*ck out
So get into it or get the f*ck out

I would be lying if I said
I could do peace and quiet

Monday, I'm praying
Tuesday, I'm heinous
Wednesday, I'm stable
Thursday, I'm up to something
Friday, I'm screaming
When I'm asleep
Then by the weekend I'll need a restraining order

So get into it or get the f*ck out
So get into it or get the f*ck out
So get into it or get the f*ck out
I would be lying if I said

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Only Love Reprise

This is reality
Can't you feel it?
I am one with what I am

Everything in color, everything
You have to see the air
You can't believe it

Only love can save us now
Only love can save us now
Only love can save us now
I wish I could talk in Technicolor

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Hate Me Harder

Congratulations, you've caught me doing some dumb shit again
That's what I do, yeah, that's what I do
I've graduated from caring about your opinions
Tell you the truth, babe, I'll never know that you existed

You saying that I'm over, you say I'm a has-been
You say I look older, nobody was asking
Luckily the joke's on you
I've got nothing left to prove

So if hating me helps you love yourself
Do your worst, baby, give me hell
Hate me harder, hate me harder
There's nothing left that I haven't heard
And I can take it, so make it hurt
Hate me harder, hate me harder

Isn't it funny
You're spending all that time and energy
Wasted on me, it's so flattering
You say I look like I just crawled out of a trash can
You say I'm obnoxious, nobody was asking
Luckily the jokes on you
I've got nothing left to prove

So if hating me helps you love yourself
Then do your worst, baby, give me hell
Hate me harder, hate me harder
There's nothing left that I haven't heard
And I can take it, so make it hurt
Hate me harder, hate me harder

Again and again and again and again, I'll keep saying over again
Been there, I've done it, I've lived it, I f*cked it
I'd do it all over again
I'll take it, I'll take it, I'll take it, I'll take it
I already know that I can, already know I can

Hate me, hate me or you love me
It's really all about you
It's really not about me

Hate me, hate me or you love me
You just keep on talking
Talking all about me

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Happy

What if none of this happened?
It's nothing like I imagined it
What if I wasn't this strong?
What if it all just went different?
So many times I wish I would've just listened
I wasn't ready for it all

There's so many things I'd change but I can't
There's so many things I said that I wish I left unsaid
Time's passing me by
Gotta just laugh so I don't cry

Well, if you asked me then where I wanted to be
It looked something like this
Living out my wildest of dreams
But life sometimes ain't always what it seems
But if you ask me now, all I've wanted to be is happy

I remember when I was little
Before I knew that anyone could be evil
These egos, some people
Playing with my innocence like at a casino
I refuse to be jaded
Still painting rainbows all over my face, oh
I've gotten used to the fall, fall, yeah

There's so many things I'd change but I can't
There's so many things I said that I wish I left unsaid
Time's passing me by
Gotta just laugh so I don't die

But if you asked me then where I wanted to be
It looks something like this
Living out my wildest of dreams
But life ain't always what it seems
Now life's got me falling to my knees

But if you ask me now
All I've wanted to be

If you'd ask me now
If you'd ask me now
If you'd ask me now
If you'd ask me now
If you'd ask me (if you'd ask me)
If you'd ask me now (if you'd ask me)
If you'd ask me now (if you'd ask me)
If you'd ask me now (if you'd ask me now)