Kaffo - Self-Portrait Lyrics

I feel like the man, I feel like I'm on, I feel like I'm doing a hell of a lot
I feel like I'm right, I feel like I'm wrong, I feel like everything is part of the plot
I feel like everything is falling apart, I feel like everybody's playing a part
I feel like I'm losing control of the art, I'm suffering I do not know where to start
I'm desperate for answers, I cannot find 'em, I look to God, I cannot find Him
Hoping He's listening, I hope that He sees that my soul is still glistening
The golden child dun changed a lot since his christening, I can't get into it
I need to- Pardon the censorship
Somethings I keep to myself, everyone said that it's bad for my health
But so is this bottle I keep on the shelf, and so is these bottles that's giving me wealth
Got so many problems that's giving me Hell, all of these notches I prick in my belt
Y'all love when I'm down, but picture me well, y'all weighing me down, I carry you still
Y'all bury me now but watch how I glow, I move in the Autobahn, y'all in the past
I'm presently first and y'all finish last, but I cannot stop I fear I might crash
I'm presently first and y'all finish last, I cannot stop I fear I might

I wake up and pray for the world, I wake up and pray for the women
And give 'em all silken linen and pray that the world become safe for the girls
I pray that my heart become bigger, 'til it's breaking my ribs
It's not in my spirit to take, it's not in my spirit to give
But it's in my spirit to live, and I need a spirit to sip
I'll give my spirit away, if it means that I can forgive
If it means that I'll be forgiven, and this world become safe for the children
If this world become safe for my siblings, then I can forget how I'm feelin'