i feel off Video (MV)

I'm so
Cold
I don't know why
I'm all
Over
Skin is so dry
Usually my
Insides are warm
But I'm
Ice
Right now

It's all over
In my head
Before I start I'm
Filled with the
Dread
Usually Im too afraid
But I am
Brave right now

Maybe it's the winter
Maybe it's the weather
I can't breathe any longer
Without freezing

Maybe I'm a lover
Should I stay and fight
Am I lost without you am I just
Buying time
Alone I have to stay warm
And I'm fine being
The sad soul in a crowd
In the storm

Tell me why do I suffer
While others can sigh at the moon

Prove to myself that I'm ok
Living alongside my pain
Like a heartbreak
Like a whole week
Without your lover

Prove to the world that's its alright
Raise both my arms and put up a fight
Till I'm okay
Till the whole day
Is passed and I lived

There's a place
That I go every time
A little pill made of water
I sit inside
The sounds are smoother here than I remember
The dreams I've had don't make any sense harder to understand than my awake head

And all I can say in the heat of the moment
Is I feel lost
I feel off I feel lost
Older than I should be
For the years that I've been living