I don't wanna live my life this way wishin' all the pain would go away
Everybody wanna hate on me and blame me for everything
Sometimes I can feel myself slowly startin' to fade away
In this book of life I write wish that I could go and change the page
Let me be free been dealing with these demons all week that don't want me to breathe yeah
Looking for peace I can feel 'em chokin' me while I sit in my seat uh
Need a release told 'em just one more song before I'm ready to leave yeah
You stole from everyone I care for deep I should call you a thief yeah
What do you want? This ain't just a drop of blood I've been ready to bleed yeah
Please let me be free if it's really me you want then give me one more week uh
To say goodbye all the time I spent on this Earth was just a lie lies
I wanted truth but soon as you were introduced I became a recluse now
I don't wanna live my life this way wishin' all the pain would go away
Everybody wanna hate on me and blame me for everything
Sometimes I can feel myself slowly startin' to fade away
In this book of life I write wish that I could go and change the page
Left all my friends if they didn't know any better bet they'd think I was dead yeah
And I'm sorry mom but it's been a long time coming why I've been on the run
You can't see what I've become know that it would break your heart in a second just trust me
I'll be okay we both know that this was bound to happen eventually 'cause
I sacrificed everything I had in life just to get on the mic and
Now that I'm here my vision's starting to get blurry I might disappear yeah
So pass me a beer if I drink just like my Dad I might actually fear
What has begun looking myself in the mirror wondering what is love huh?
Feels like a drug used to have a grip on reality but I lost touch yeah
Why you tryna judge? You don't know nothing 'bout me 'cept the music I've done yeah
So give me a gun if I blow my brains to the sky would you finally rush
To make sure I'm good? Hmm 'cause the last time I checked you left me in the dust now
I don't wanna live my life this way wishin' all the pain would go away
Everybody wanna hate on me and blame me for everything
Sometimes I can feel myself slowly startin' to fade away
In this book of life I write wish that I could go and change the page
I don't wanna live my life this way wishin' all the pain would go away
Everybody wanna hate on me and blame me for everything
Sometimes I can feel myself slowly startin' to fade away
In this book of life I write wish that I could go and change the page