I think I lost the process
If I'm being honest
God doesn't bring in what we always think is promised
Hopes haven't swayed but your faith will take a knockin'
Slippin' on a slope till your pride is all forgotten
Thought I was a bird of a feather with my mama
Now I know she feels like I'm tryna bring her karma
Feelin' like I harmed her
Jesus
I don't know where I'm tryna go
I don't know what I'm lookin' for
I don't know if I'll find a home
Depression is expensive
That's what papa told me why he's swingin' on the fences
Feel a bit of stress so you breathe to push the tension
Lookin' up to god like why you gotta test him
And why you gotta test me
Cause now I gotta see how my breed gonna breed hate all in my direction
The shit I gotta question
Jesus
I don't know if I'll find a home
My legs can't do it on their own
And I feel the weight of tickin' time
And all the thoughts I've left behind
But don't think hope fairs well on it's own
I don't know where I'm tryna go
I don't know what I haven't shown
I don't know if I'll find a home
Mama goin' Kim Marthers for my college
Piggy bank for pockets in hopes that out of state would help me get a profit
She hopes that that would help with my happiness in honest
It shows and I can tell that she loves me from the bottom but
How she gon be if I leave
I feel we need more time to show we've
Made a bit of space
To lean on each other and no doubt she's my mama I love her