Katalyst - Dear OxyContin Lyrics

Yeah Dear OxyContin
Since the day I met you, knew we'd be long term
There was just something about the way we felt together
I wasn't expecting what was next ain't know what was coming
Cuz at the time you cleared my stress and depression and I loved it
I never met someone like you, never knew someone like you
Someone that never hurt me, never argued
You was there every time, the exact amount I needed
Got to where I wanted more of you, you were my meaning
You ended up defining me, defying me
Turned my world upside down, I needed you to sleep
I needed you to be awake, to function at all
What happened to that love's now an obsessions and laws
Are being broken while I'm chasing you, jeopardizing my freedom
Relationship's out of control, loosed my personal demons
On top of that the way I felt's now harder to capture
I thought we was lovers but I'm a slave to you master
My kids watched me fiend for you
They ain't know what they was seeing
See I loved you more than them
Rather of died than lose that feeling
That you gave me even though it's fake and superficial
All that covering and masking of my pain was artificial
Now it's way worse than it ever was before we met
Cuz when you couldn't be found my only option was death
Suicide - tried over and over answer to having you
Every breath I willingly gave you
Couldn't stand being sober, it's like I lost myself
Didn't know who I was, I was blind without braille
Was in checkmate, thought I still had moves
It's your fault these felonies haunt me from my love for you
See we was unbreakable
I'd do anything to have you there
I didn't care
Put pistols on strangers, nothing compared
To the release you provided, felt supernatural
Maybe that's why I confided in you, Hospitals
Were cutting me open, major surgeries and your cousins
Were introduced into my blood but you ain't get jealous
You was cool with it cuz in the end it made me more zealous
For everything you stood for, more and more pills is the cure
Big Pharma worked harder to keep us together
But you got so sharp, went from light as a feather
To stiff as a board on the floor, throwing up more
Than I had, dehydrated, I'm still wanting more
Please Tell Me, Why'd You Lie To Me?
Why'd You Promise That You'd Make Me Better?
Why'd You Try To KILL ME?
Well there's a reason for this letter
Ten years since we broke up, I'm better than I was
Better than I could've imagined all because I ended us