Kate Ortlund - What a Mess Lyrics

I know myself too well
I know for a fact you can't tell
You're running circles around my mind
And I've convinced myself you're one of a kind
But I know this won't end well

Maybe it's delusion
Maybe it's the truth
Maybe it's the way this hasn't gone away
Since I met you in June

Oh what a mess
What a mess I've gotten myself into
What a mess
What a stupid thing to do

Part of me is hoping
This will simply fall through
But what a mess
Nonetheless
I still like you

I lie 'cause it mends the pain
I tried like it was my own game
I'd say these were my final thoughts
But I find ways to love you without a cause

Oh what a mess
What a mess I've gotten myself into
What a mess
What a stupid thing to do

Part of me is hoping
This will simply fall through
But what a mess
Nonetheless
I still like you

Time would only tell me
What I already know
This would only matter
If we had places to go
I'm not holding out for anything less than you
But it still hurts
'Cause I know we'll never work

Oh what a mess
What a mess I've gotten myself into
What a mess
What a stupid thing to do

Part of me is praying this will simply fall through
'Cause oh what a mess
Nonetheless
I still like you