Sink Video (MV)

I went to the river
Never could get these hands clean enough
Each visit I'd shiver
Saw myself in the water
Start throwing up
I wish that I could just make it go away
The constant guilt that feeds on me day to day
Shook
Don't look
I'll be okay
I'm fine

What else can I say
I am my own worst enemy
All of these thoughts I can't shake
I'm not okay but I'll pretend to be

I tried my best to breathe in
The water filled my lungs
The ones I love are leaving
I sit and bite my tongue
I'm just not who they need me to be
All I've known is falling with the leaves

Crawling towards forgiveness
Beg upon my knees
Anything to end this
Can someone hear my pleas
Never got an answer
Guess that has to be okay
These flaws are a cancer
Rid myself of them before it's too late

My body hits the floor
I think I'm caving in
Will I brave the storm
Or end up there again

I tried my best to breathe in
The water filled my lungs
The ones I love are leaving
I sit and bite my tongue
I'm just not who they need me to be
All I've known is falling with the leaves

I never felt so small
Drifting towards the edge
On the verge of losing it all
Waiting for the call
To shake me of this sickness
At night I lie awake
This endless fight to keep the demons at bay
Awaken every day
Choke choke choking on the words I'm desperate to say

I'm Sorry for the words I've spoken
Sorry for the things I've done
Can't ignore
Bent til broken
Cant ignore
I've come undone
(I wanted to be more
I'm sinking faster and faster
I wanted to be more
I can hardly breathe
I wanted to be more
I'm sinking faster and faster
I wanted to be more
I can hardly breathe)

I'm sorry for the words I've spoken
Sorry for the things I've done
Can't ignore
Bent til broken
Can't ignore
I've come undone