Thantophobia Video (MV)

Realizations
I really miss our conversations
Hard to believe there will never ever be a replacement
Expectations
With no motivation
Gonna just sit here, and keep writing in my basement

Could've helped you with your demons
That hunted you while you were sleeping
If you're thinking something now say it, and I really f*cking mean it and it
Hurts that it's so real
I don't know what to feel
You don't know what life's worth
Until it's carried on a hearse
It's a gift and it's a curse
Cause we lose but he wins
Had to take a moment, sit down, and let it seep it
I'm so tired, I'm exhausted, I've been barely sleeping
Feel like a newborn tryna swim in the deep end

I wrote my tears in these lines
Wish I saw the fear in his eyes
Think of an ocean of fish and you lose one
Wish my emotions could fix, wish I could do some
They say life is a bitch until you lose someone
But really life is a ditch and it just gets deeper
I'm gonna keep getting rich as my friends get cheaper
I thought I had a keeper, had to leave her

Can't sympathize with you
I can't realize what's true
I can't be alive with you
Can't think of life without you
Pissed off at every single time I tried to doubt you

Can't let this bring me down
I'm gonna get to the top look, look at my now
I'm gonna do what I can, to make you proud
Gonna do the best I can even without you around
Gonna
Work work until I'm out of fumes
Gonna blow up dad with my name on the news
Don't know what for yet, but I know I'm doing it for you