Khalil - Torn Lyrics

Left away from a straight direction
So I write about a angled reflection
On full scap
Im tryna to perfect my craft

Diamond lyrics on my note pad
But the ghosts shadow in the shattered glass
So my past keeps spillin on the page writin a trippy draft

Now I got a white Styrofoam cup
So I slurp the purple up

The Skeletons in my closet tryna pull me to the devil
Whos your reverend
Whos the one taxin

My cousin the next dead man
My brothers the next victim
My sisters the next present for a weird man
So then I must be condemned

Im on a path in the wrong direction
They not sure which way im goin
Up, down, left or right
Cuz its Love hate death or life

High way or the lame way
Alcohol and drugs
Theyll tell you thats the way to become an
Official black bumb

But my relationship with the one above is a long one
What you believe
Is everythin you see what it seem
I clear my red eyes with visine to see HD

Every days another day got henessy with me
Some type of way I feel this way I feel so far away

Every days another day got henessy with me
Some type of way I feel this way I feel so far away

So thank me later cuz im only gunna serve this to you once
Like grandmas thanksgivin dinner, there'll be nothin later

Im talkin turkey with baked potatas
You eating just what they gave ya
But I gave the recipe for disaster
Its only a matter of time before I pop off in a gas station when im plastered

For some blue faces
Just to spend it all in rated R basements
On some groupies with caked faces

And you'll be astonished how I maintain these commas with decisions wack
Like I lack conscious
But I just spits facts honest

So I'm glad I'm free within my mind
So high you'll wonder how and why
These thoughts channel deep inside
To spit these dope lines

In the game I'm just tryna be ill recognized
Got ya confused on what I meant
Convinced its cuz my mind state smell like heaven sent

Just because you don't let
Spare spent nickels quarters and cents
Define your night activities with friends

But yet, tell me where we all end up in sense
On the fence
Still torn about her so let me vent
About way back when

She tested my heart like mic one two, one two, check

Every day is another day got henessy with me
Some type of way I feel this way I feel so far away

Every day is another day got henessy with me
Some type of way I feel this way I feel so far away

But thats what keeps me plastered to the game
Like a black thumb with some ink

They wanna hypnotize me but I'm not with their link
I pour my drink and think

Are you a friend or foe
But those come and go
And most wont ever know
That you used to be to my bro

And now you textin my phone
Cuz I got the sauce
See I been had it grasped for time
And now Im really livin this life

And this stardom in my mind
Got me so high
Im trippin off a glass of wine

Like I expired my own fruit
These grapes are full of news
Like I'm addicted to ink
I tattoo my mind with visions in-sync

With a different me
Futuristically
I be killin these beats
Indefinitely

When I speak for all ya'll to repeat
Melodies
When I'm on stage lookin icy

Cuz I'm just a young king envisioning
These batti truths
But I aint Jamaican im a Trini yute

But they thought I was on some bombaclaut
They way I be smokin like a rasta and I like to rap alot

Some braids and air force ones fresher then wet paint
Like a ghosted soldier moma and pops
Made a saint

100 hunnid on the wrist and a milli the bank
But a billi be my mind state
Not puttin out a hand to shake

I cant fake
Cuz I'm spark of the flame
Follow my way
Being torn made me this way
Khalil the saint