Kid Kenzi - Lonely Lyrics

I don't wanna hate myself no more
Hate all these feelings I can't ignore
Given you more than you'd ever need
At my expense and I can't reform
And now I've fallen low
And these nights are long when I'm on my own
Mind is rolling, I'm off the boat
When these waves collide it gets hard to float
I'm screaming underwater, drowning fast
Pray it's ending and it doesn't last
Feeling distant sometimes
I don't feel present, time's running past
Waves crash and I'm just trying to row
In these waters I'm a lonely soul
Searching for what will make me whole
I just hope one day I will find it though
'Cause I don't wanna see my life go by
Why is my guard up at all times?
Always push away everybody
Never trusting love and I don't know why
Some days I'm just a floating vessel
Dissociating you can see me roam
In the darkness tryna find the light
I just hope these waves are gonna take me home

I been feeling lost, I been lonely
Hate that I still feel like no one knows me
Falling on this long road slowly
I don't think I'll ever find the old me
I been feeling lost, I been lonely
Hate that I still feel like no one knows me
Falling on this long road slowly
I don't think I'll ever find the old me

I know that you mean well
I think that it's time the end arrives
I hate to say goodbyes
But but truth is we just don't see the same side
And every time I'm down
You just make me feel like it's my fault that I'm here
'Cause of you I've fallen every year
To new lows, can you please go disappear
I know that you're trying to protect me
But you just make me feel alone inside
Compromising all my self-worth
Hurting people, try to sabotage my life
You been deceiving me, thought you were freeing me
Now I feel like I cannot be loved
My happiness, you been passing it up
I gave my all to you is that not enough?
These days are feeling so cold
I wanna change and I wanna grow
Out of this phase and into my own
Life that I can truly take a hold
And stop all this hiding I need to get out of your shadow
And break the grip of this rope
I'm sorry this time I finally have to go
It's hard when you're all I've ever really known
It's lonely

I been feeling lost, I been lonely
Hate that I still feel like no one knows me
Falling on this long road slowly
I don't think I'll ever find the old me
I been feeling lost, I been lonely
Hate that I still feel like no one knows me
Falling on this long road slowly
I don't think I'll ever find the old me