Kimberly Townsend - What This Is Lyrics

In search of the reason why
Days unfold as they do
I've run askew
I am very close to accepting
My very, very present past
And you're aghast

But I say, "No, no
I dedicate my chaos
To the ones who told me: living's only
About trying to flourish
In this livid space"

I know this isn't anything
You haven't seen before
But tell me more
I know you get your courage
Based upon who you were yesterday
But let me stay

Cause I will hear you fully
We can compare notes
On our thoughts on the poetry
That comes from watching a war

A girl comprised of complexity
Gets down real close
And talks to me
I hardly know her anymore, but I'm trying
We live so loud
A man whose mouth I remember
Gets down real close
And whispers
"You can have it if you try"
I say, "I don't have time for this tonight"
He replies, "We live so loud"

I get that hurting hard and giving in
Can't be related
I digress
I get that masochism
Isn't about what comes later
So I won't press
I humbly acknowledge
We are not trying our best
But that doesn't mean
That this should matter any less