Kimel - Tired Lyrics

Aint you tired of my ways
Being treated wrong for days
I've grown since drowned
Into a person that i hate
I dream all the time kill my old self and my old ways
The dreams get realistic as I soon forget my place
In the world
Am I supposed to make you smile
Am I supposed to be your friend
And watch you get beaten to the ground
Yea you broke my heart but
That would make us no different
Wanting something more while I'm here
Reminiscing
All I wanted was you
But time has passed and changed
Wondering how far I could really take this blame
Or go and take more pain
More hate that I can gain
Worry starts to scurry in my mind
And then goes plain
I knew you was so special
Wish I never met you
On gods coincidental
I know I'll never forget you
Your love was a whole era
My mind my starts to bara
Ly to move
On what to do
Thought that I could choose
Thinkin it was easy to go for number two
Thinkin we was bestfriends
I loved you till our whole end
You said you needed me In life
And I thought it would be perfect
To let you leave
And see how much I bleed
Black and purple
Bruises on my heart
You done wit me
I'd never die
I wanna stay alive
I never told you I'd commit
Suicide for our ride
You needed me you said
I wanted you
But the mindset of our life
Won't let us move
I know it's time for me again
Time to tell the truth to my family and all my friends
About some other ends that I might have slightly bent
I didn't want a family cause I was scared To pretend
To be happy about my ends
And losing my close friends
And telling them everything
I'm missing her like once again
All the insecurities and lessons that I've gained
Through talkin cryin yellin
While we drownin in this pain
I know it hurts the same
But nothing is the same
But I miss you all the same
Internally hiding pain
Who's to blame
Playin the blame game
Working towards the fame
Got me missing you
Yea it's strange
Not gon lie ry I miss you
Let's push through all of our issues
I wanted to you to wait
Cause time won't always go against you
With everything we've been through
You really think I'd offend you
I was with you for a year and half
Then discontinued
You tired of me
See I know it's okay
Your mother brother and sister
All think of me like insane
And I can't say that I've changed
I'm still insecure in the brain
I've been keeping to myself
Cause that's the way that I maintain
You tired of my ways...
You tired of my ways...
Talking you ain't the same
You told me that it would change
When we really broke up
Never meaning to choke up
You told me that we splittin by the door
That's when I woke up
We hugged for 20 minutes you said that we'd talk later
You told me while we cryin and huggin this could be savored
You was tired of my ways
Nothin stayed the same
Would you cry on my last
Would you cry for my past
Would cry for me
Would you heal for me
Would lie for my death
Would lie on my bed
And tell me why you shed
All them tears on my head
Tell me you loved me for them years
Tell me what you invisioned
And go about all your fears
I wanna go on and on I'm here but
I can't hear
A heart beat of your presence
Come to find out you ain't here
I'm numb to it all
I got about like 28 missed calls
From someone I can't resolve
Wish they understood that my world just can't revolve
Around one person cause problems ain't gettin solved
I don't mean to sound rude
But the feelin is different
This ain't a break up song
I'm just here reminiscin
I'm sorry about everything
Like pain I been giving