Disease Video (MV)

I got alot of unsuspected memories flooding my brain
I can't rely on all the past mistakes to simply go away
Cuz even when I want to fake
It it's hard for me to even say it I want to leave this life behind and just runaway
I can change
I just don't really know what has come over me
It's like a disease
Never me
I never thought I could hurt you so violently I'm like a disease
The nights have been restless
Days never ending
I'm feeling reckless
Mood is descending
Change is ahead but I
Hate to wait
When all of my fate
Depends on pretending
Does it matter what I do
Does it matter what I think of you
Does it matter if I change
All my thoughts just seem to stay the same
Get out of my head and break out of these chains
If I can just see what it's like to live in the moment
If I get a shot to be normal for more than a day
Then I'd say that I'm right and I'm done thinking of it
I think how I'll never change now I don't see sunshine
I just see cloudy days theyre filled with rain now
I don't parade around I get all caught up in my cloudy brain cloud
Like maybe if I try to make you smile for just a little
While I wouldn't feel so f*cking crazy but I need it
Now I need your expertise to find the cure to this disease
I can change
I just don't really know what has come over me
It's like a disease
Never me
I never thought I could hurt you so violently I'm like a disease
I can change
I just don't really know what has come over me
It's like a disease
Never me
I never thought I could hurt you so violently I'm like a disease