KJ Tha Goddess - Vulnerable (When I'm Sober) Lyrics

I've heard it said you bleed when your innocence leaves
Well, I'm still bleeding
A part of my being drips red on the sheets
My girlhood runs down to the floor, I am dreaming
Craving I'll find an escape

Away in some cave where the ocean makes thunder
Blocked from my memories
I become someone else, I'm swept under
That's art, I won't keep that piece

You made me burn bright, now there's just smoke
Feeling my ashes where once I kept hope

I'm sorry I can't be vulnerable when I'm sober
Drink in my fear, you hear what you want me to say
Rip these thoughts from my head like the sheets from the bed, it's over
Now it's gone, now I know what the price is to pay
I'm drunk on my fear, I know you can tell, so please make it better some way.

She's an oasis, water her palm trees with love
But you were too rough
Smell your desire, take off some cuff
You don't deserve me, I'm calling my bluff
Hot water and bleach make everything white again

You can't take the stains out from my soul
Lies are cool against wounds on me
I hate the word "took", it implies given
Wrapped up with ribbons, isn't it pretty

This didn't go the way I had thought
I'll have to kill that voice, new one to be bought

I'm sorry I can't be vulnerable when I'm sober
Drink in my fear, you hear what you want me to say
Rip these thoughts from my head like the sheets from the bed, it's over
Now it's gone, now I know what the price is to pay
I'm drunk on my fear, I know you can tell, so please make it better some way.

What have I offered? some kind of alms, exotic like lillies torn from their dew
Look through my eyes, crystals and palms, glowing with blue, deepest for you
You held my hand when I was leaving Eden
I'm sorry I'm no longer vulnerable, close my gateways to you