Knowhere. Never. - i am afraid of the dark Lyrics

Never saw my future, I was blinded by my own sin
Haven't found a way to shed my own old skin
Fooled by the illusions in my time of trying
This fairy tale of us is getting far out of line

The devil has my ear today, I'm never hearing what you say
Raining on my parade, come again another day
You made me constantly disgusted with the man in bed I'm wearing
Needed you that night, but you didn't care to save me

But sometimes you're better than the secrets that I keep
It seems the five-star player just couldn't save the team
Feels like I'm breaking down, no one says I'm allowed
Ashes to ashes, you let me fall down

Will we crumble to the ground or will we migrate to an urn?
Will someone give me directions to the home I never earned?
You can't go, it's early in the song
Though the last tear you'll ever cry won't even last long

Medicated drama queen
You were my heaven and hell, you f*cked everything in between
Can't wash the stains of your consequences
Don't bullshit me with your f*cking lack of consciousness, bitch

Tricked by the sticks and stones in my time of trying
The times I tried to save you in your time of dying
The times I tried to breathe for you, my breath I will repent
The times you f*cking persuaded me you were heaven sent

Burn your halo down, I'm not wishing you the best
Don't ask for forgiveness, God won't take your requests
And then you tried to hide behind your faceless lies
You're surrounded by loneliness, won't get out alive

You say 'everything is broken, everything is grey'
Well, everything is grey 'cuz you made it that way
You tried to rearrange the way that you're wired
But the only thing you did was just get higher and higher

Don't bullshit me and say 'without you, life is sad'
Because you can't lose something that you never f*cking had
I thought I was your hero, I would bleed for you
I even told you I didn't want to live without you

I was caught by the apple of your insanity
And now these scars I scratch are a reminder of what you did to me
I begged you and begged you to please go away
But you're a f*cking boomerang, the hell can I say

Nothing left to lose, I want to change your mind in song
My agony left me in bed, the bindings too strong
I don't have the keys, thought maybe I could use yours
But you got into the habit of making failed cures

Ask my dad if he remembers that tree should have cut
Tell my mother I finally decided I've had enough
Don't question the vultures or that weird smell
I'll leave you to rot and see you in Hell