Knowhere. Never. - life = death Lyrics

Yeah, since I was 14, I had a voice inside me
I can't deny, I can not fight what will always surround me
Can't win the race, I'm running in place, I'm throwing my thoughts all over the place
Throwing my thoughts all over the page, don't know my name, not showing my face
Living the life, livings a lie, don't wanna live, just wanna die
Gun to the head, taking the shot, if I hesitate, just gonna rot
High like an addict, stuck in a bad habit
Everyone tells me to try and love myself, but I don't have it
Just wanna hide again, don't wanna try again
Like young slitwrist, I just wanna die again
Living the life is only living a lie
And living a lie is only living to die, aye
Aye, cross my heart and hope to die
Stick needles in my eyes
Death is breathing down my neck
Making me tell those lies, like
I don't wanna give up, don't wanna 'double-cup' up
Don't wanna pop a percy just so I can get more f*cked up
'Cuz I'm just a dead boy waiting to die again
I'm blind again, so high again
Smoke so much shit, that good shit is hard to come by again
I'll try to get by
But, I don't think I can
Sam, I am, not, a man, I am not
Got my hands tied up in other plans and not
Running away from what's right behind me
She's right behind me