Koda Sylver - Grains of Sand Lyrics

All these damn people but I feel so alone
Stressed out, Just wonder why I have a phone
All these fake ass people, they wanna see me strive
Reality is, they just wanna see me die
With a "good job" this and a "great job" that
Stop with all that shit, you'll never be right back
I've been working on my own, I know it be like that
Listen to my lil story as the clock winds back
3 years is exact, when I came home from school
I heard the yellin' and the cussin' and the anger entombed
Inside of my livin' room, havin' no idea what's happenin'
Little did I realize how my dad would be back then
He vanished in an instant, now my role model's gone
And my respect went with him, like it was sold, stole, or pawned
And now a part of me's gone, my heart is grown stiff again
And we may see the same moon but my star's grown dim again

Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I go and try to get some help, but nobody wants to lend a hand
Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I cup my hands, I go to stand, I pray my future's shining grand

I cupped my hands, I went to stand, and now the sand has fallen through
My palms show the scars are true... and then there's you
Livin' out your life like you've got nothing to lose
Forgetting that you have a son who used to once admire you
Yo what the f*ck is wrong with you, I thought I had somebody trustworthy
Now my vision's blurry... you were a hero in my eyes
And now the tears that I have cried, they block my sight just like a stye
Any knight without his armor's just a f*ckin' random guy
The king of his castle lost his crown to his weaknesses
The man of the house became a weasel acting secretive
The prince was the oldest and the youngest was a jester
Performing for the love, but he never gained acceptance
I hope to be a king that brings more honor than you ever could
The sand inside this hourglass has given you the time that would
Determine what would happen if your kingdom fell to stone
But now that doesn't matter, 'cuz my kingdom's on our own

Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I go and try to get some help, but nobody wants to lend a hand
Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I cup my hands, I go to stand, I pray my future's shining grand

If there's one thing that I learned from you, it's what a dad should never do
Being there in spirit doesn't mean that you were there in true
I finally read that text that I was terrified to read
I finally got the message: you didn't care and had to leave
I typed a long reply that I don't think you ever read
It said "I love you and I hate you" now I'm stuck inside my head
Battling with issues that you could've helped me through
If you had been a man instead of a boy who's just too scared to move

Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I go and try to get some help, but nobody wants to lend a hand
Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I cup my hands, I go to stand, I pray my future's shining grand

Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I go and try to get some help, but nobody wants to lend a hand
Time and time again I look at who you used to be
The one person on my mind and what you did to me
I know that all these incidents are like some grains of sand
I cup my hands, I go to stand, I pray my future's shining grand