Kodee - Secrets Lyrics

I been keeping secrets on the low
I been losing sleep like you don't know
Will I ever speak em I don't know
Cause I been keeping secrets on the low

This is how my life is going at the moment I feel like I'm losing hope and nobody has Really noticed just how deep the pain is flowing and how cold my heart is frozen, and How much the demons growing, I am broken, all my happiness is stolen
Laughing through this mask is getting hard
People clawing at it leaving scars
Tell me one more time just how you would live my life
That ain't really up to you, man I just live my life
Ima live it how I want it, even if I lie
About my healthiness and all the things up in my mind
I know at some point in all this I have to draw a line
In what I think is bad versus what I think is fine
I been declining ever since I was rising, and I have been lying ever since I been trying
Haven't been smiling ever since I was hiding
And I keep on going, but lately I have been slowing

I been losing sleep like every night
Know the way I feel and it ain't right
Difference in my mind is black and white
Cause I been losing sleep like every night

I wish too hard for something when I know that nothings coming
All this shoving back and forth man this don't feel to sudden
Everything I'm working for yeah it just turns to nothing
Maybe I'm just paranoid yeah maybe I'm just bugging
But this nothing's turned to something I ain't laughing on my own
Can't control my self no more, should fix it but I don't
Tell myself I'll try one day but deep down know I won't
Hate to say I saw it coming but all this I've known
It's been raining and it couldn't feel more fitting
All I'm hearing lately is it crashing on my ceiling
Telling me to talk about the secrets I been keeping
But I just keep ignoring it and try to keep on sleeping
I been declining ever since I was rising, and I have been lying ever since I been trying
Haven't been smiling ever since I was hiding
And I keep on going, but lately I have been slowing

I been keeping secrets on the low
I been losing sleep like you don't know
Will I ever speak em I don't know
I been losing sleep like you don't know