Kol - Drowning Lyrics

I don't wanna fill your shoes
I cried when I heard the news
I drown in the f*cking booze
I'm so over the self abuse

I cause in my f*cking dreams
I think I've lost my self-esteem
I plunge my face in the stream
To forget the sounds of their screams

I don't really that fine
I lied when I said alright
Now I drown inside when I smile
It's been so long now it's starting to pile

I don't wanna feel alright
I died a bit inside that night
You lied you tried I died
But I, don't wanna be alright... I cried