KS - FOR A SECOND Lyrics

KS
God-fearing but never threatened
If it was on my time for a second
I would have done my Warm-Up Session with Jamal Edwards
And rapped to it with venom
Showing him more bars than Feltham
Instead of texting him I should have belled him
The fact we had our date locked in is devastating
Cause he was coaching me and over time I was developing
But let me stop here cause I'm starting to sound selfish with what he could have done for me
Me and suicidal thoughts haven't spoken a piece
So we thank God for this peace
Wars with myself
Me VS me, no jewellery. 29 dropping gems again, that's a jeweller to me
I need revival from insecurities
I'm here wondering where we went wrong
Only so much guidance through these songs
I'll be real some prayer requests I either forgot or they wasn't my main focus
Now he's barely holding on. I'm here telling him stay strong
He would have been stronger if I prayed for him
Would have been stronger if I took time to say to him
My armour has got cracks in too
But let's pray together, suffer now
Live together forever, eternal life
Things will be better soon
Decisions we make catch up
Then things start to get dread here like a Rasta
They think multiplying is a negative but it's not that, it's a plus
If I eat we all eat, everybody go' get some
I can never eat and leave my brother starving, are you dumb?
Those nights we had crumbs
I can't leave man to play catch up
I've got big plans so when things flops then my head's in my hands
I've got big dreams I can't bury in the sand
You ever had it all and you still felt incomplete?
I encountered death late so I struggled with grief
I don't think it gets easier
Lost Cecilia, lost Ezra, lost Kieya when some people die then so does a piece of ya
Breathing methods, still not breathing much
This house ain't my home despite my key being cut
I don't need much, I just know how much I need Jesus
Lord help me I feel defeated
Ask my brother 'please keep me in your prayers
Refused by a therapist, they didn't want to see these layers. I don't blame ya
But I got more closure speaking to
Then I got more faith, trusting in my way maker
Then I found direction from my saviour
I was put on a waiting list and it could have been dangerous
But it made me see how beautiful life is
And why I shouldn't play with it
Having chats with an atheist
Saying they don't believe in God but they know who Satan is
And that's killing me
Planting seeds and watering them
I ain't selling hope and faith, nor auctioning them
In this life there's for and against
There's those who take criticism as offence
There's people that sit on the fence but peer pressure gets to them
I can't be misled
In school when miss led
She said Kumar you're well behaved but you're easily distracted
I could have listened to what miss said
But I would have been misled
Because how I manage time in studio, like Temi Coker, I'm fully focused
These promises are broken
I'm only human is the line I hold on to clear my conscience
The pain is constant so the prayers are constant
These thoughts are often, I'm talking to God often
I used to think he wasn't responding
But it wasn't the right time, yet I'm clocking
Empty pockets
Some people focus on the outside not realising their souls are rotting
On the battlefield it's spiritual warfare there's no time to play possum
There's no time to play possum. There's no time to play possum. I said there's no time to play possum
KS