[ Featuring Futuristic ]
Call me Muhammad cli
This ain't a fight it's a brawl match
Me vs the world and my fists are in all caps
I'm with all that, but I question what's the source of my rage
Cordial with age, but I feel like I've been forced in a cage
How do I solve that? Im too reactive even after an off day
This part of me has no color
It was printed in all gray, for God sakes
Damn why the hell am I this way?
I got everything to prove
But I have nothin else in faith
I just, I don't even know why the f*ck I'm even here
I'm givin' ears, but I emotionally break and I disappear
It's been years since I felt I am all here
I ball tears tryna drown this side of me but I just draw fear
I keep diggin' deep inside to find my motivation
Cll I finds an endless source of anger lookin for altercation
How do you convey that you need help without appearing desperate
Damn, I can't even look in the mirror
Left with a fear of uncertainty but here you can have what's left of me
I hopin' you'll find life in the death of me
Metaphorically speaking I've been dead to me
Lookin for a way to grow through melodies
But I don't know where I am
I've been feelin' lost I need some distance
I don't wanna talk cuz I don't wanna hear you say
That it's gonna be okay because it isn't
No guidance and I don't know where I am
I been feelin lost
Maybe this is who I am
I been feelin lost
Yo, I used to drink my sorrows after long days workin' and hatin' life
Picking pieces up from people I've broken to make it right
With a random girl, but knew that I wasn't gon' spend the night
Just avoiding who I had at the crib so we didn't fight
That's a lost soul
C dark road I was drivin' down
Dropped songs, no one responds
Did it without a sound
Crickets in the crowd
I wanted to make my mama proud
Lookin' in the mirror
I'm actin' just like my father now, yeah
Who was I becoming never nothing that I wanted
Need to get back on my feet again
I was broke without a dollar catch a bus and go to college
Then I write and kill the beat again
Get home when it's 3am
Off to work to make amends
Just so I can pay the rent
Looking back I saw the learning curve
Everything that happened made me better than i've ever been
I've been feelin' lost I need some distance
I don't wanna talk cuz I don't wanna hear you say
That it's gonna be okay because it isn't
No guidance and I don't know where I am
I been feelin lost
Maybe this is who I am
I been feelin lost