mad i Video (MV)

How can I say these words that have some type of value
Everything I say is meaning less, meaningless
How can I be mad I lost you
Thought I was good, I'd done everything you'd wanted me to
My eyes hang low, hang low, I weep for you
Midnight skies ain't the same, since deprived of your moon
What's your favorite color? Where you wanna go? questions I don't have the answers to
Who you with? who knows, my friends got tired of keeping tabs on you
How can I be mad that I, that I lost you
How can I be mad that I, that I lost you
Luck I lost, turning cold, waters deep, it's shallow
Can't swim back to shore, can't swim, think I'm gon' drown
How can I be mad that I lost myself
Lost myself
Know your scent eats me up, it eats me up
I miss your hope, I miss when you acted so you
But now my hands tied up, looking left, looking right, which I go
I don't know, I can't choose, between my Collared binds
I can't
I can't show you
I can't show you
I can't love you
I can't
I can't love you
I don't know you
I'm hunched over, hunched over
I ain't been sober, I been losing sleep, I been tuned out, caught up in the grief
I ain't eat good in about a week, I ain't had a meal in about a week
I'm looking left, looking right
Looking everywhere I can go
I can't go back to the shore
Can't go back to my home
You were the one thing in my life
You showed me purpose and strife
Now I can't say goodnight
My eyes swell up, because I've cried
Luck I've lost, turned to mad, turned to mad I
Mad I
Mad I
Mad I
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Mad eye
Your love's so skeletal, it hurts me to my core