Broken By Desire To Be Heavenly Sent Album Lyrics by Lewis Capaldi

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Forget Me

Days ache and nights are long
Two years and still, you're not gone
Guess I'm still holdin' on
Drag my name through the dirt
Somehow, it doesn't hurt though
Guess you're still holdin' on
You told your friends you want me dead
And said that I did everything wrong
And you're not wrong

Well, I'll take all the vitriol
But not the thought of you movin' on

'Cause I'm not ready
To find out you know how to forget me
I'd rather hear how much you regret me
And pray to God that you never met me
Than forget me
Oh, I hate to know I made you cry
But love to know I cross your mind, babe, oh, I
Even after all, it'd still wreck me
To find out you know how to forget me
Even after all this time

Days ache and nights are grey
My heart is still your place, babe
Guess I still feel the same
Know you can't stand my face
Some scars you can't erase, babe
Guess you still feel the same

Well, I'll take all the vitriol
But not the thought of you movin' on

'Cause I'm not ready
To find out you know how to forget me
I'd rather hear how much you regret me
And pray to God that you never met me
Than forget me
Oh, I hate to know I made you cry
But love to know I cross your mind, babe, oh, I
Even after all, it'd still wreck me
To find out you know how to forget me
Even after all this time

I'm not ready to let you forget me
To let you forget me, to let you for-, oh
I'm not ready to let you forget me
To let you forget me, to let you for-, oh (even after all this time)
I'm not ready to let you forget me
To let you forget me, to let you for-, oh
I'm not ready to let you forget me
To let you forget me, to let you for-, oh

'Cause I'm not ready
To find out you know how to forget me
I'd rather hear how much you regret me
And pray to God that you never met me
Than forget me
Oh, I hate to know I made you cry
But love to know I cross your mind, babe, oh, I
Even after all, it'd still wreck me
To find out you know how to forget me
Even after all this time

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Wish You The Best

I'll miss knowin' what you're thinkin'
And hearin' how your day has been
Do you think you can tell me everything, darling?
But leave out every part about him
Right now you're probably by the ocean
While I'm still out here in the rain
With every day that passes by since we've spoken
It's like Glasgow gets further from LA

Maybe it's supposed to be this way

But, oh, my love
I wanna say I miss the green in your eyes
And when I said we could be friends, guess I lied
I wanna say I wish that you never left
Oh, but instead I only wish you the best
I wanna say without you, everything's wrong
And you were everything I need all along
I wanna say I wish that you never left
Oh, but instead I only wish you the best

Well, I can't help but notice
You seem happier than ever now
And I guess that I should tell you I'm sorry
It seems I was the problem somehow

Maybe I only brought you down

But, oh, my love
I wanna say I miss the green in your eyes
And when I said we could be friends, guess I lied
I wanna say I wish that you never left
Oh, but instead I only wish you the best
I wanna say without you, everything's wrong
And you were everything I need all along
I wanna say I wish that you never left
Oh, but instead I only wish you the best

But, oh, my love
Oh-whoa
Oh, my love
Oh-whoa

Wish I could say it's something I really mean
But I want you happy whether not it's with me
I wanna say I wish that you never left
Oh, but instead I only wish you the best
I wanna say without you, everything's wrong
And you were everything I need all along
I wanna say I wish that you never left
Oh, but instead I only wish you the best

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Pointless

I bring her coffee in the morning
She brings me inner peace
I take her out to fancy restaurants
She takes the sadness out of me
I make her cards on her birthday
She makes me a better man
I take her water when she's thirsty
She takes me as I am

I love it when her mind wanders
And she loves it when I stay at home
I know when she's lost and she knows when I feel alone

From all my airs and graces
To the little things I do
Everything is pointless without you
Of all the dreams I'm chasing
There's only one I choose
Everything is pointless without you

I light the fire when it's cold out
And she lights up the room
I hope that she'll love me forever
She hopes I'll be back soon
I take her out to the movies
She takes away my pain
She is the start of everything
And I'll be there 'til the end

I love when she laughs for no reason
And her love's the reason I'm here
She knows when I'm hurt and I know when she's feeling scared, mh

From all my airs and graces
To the little things I do
Everything is pointless without you
Of all the dreams I'm chasing
There's only one I choose
Everything is pointless without you

I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you
You'll wait for me too
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for you
You'll wait for me too

From all my airs and graces
To the little things I do
Everything is pointless without you
Of all the dreams I'm chasing
There's only one I choose
Everything is pointless without you
Everything is pointless without you

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Heavenly Kind Of State Of Mind

It's almost cruel, the blue in your eyes
The kind of blasphemy that makes a congregation cry
When I'm with you, it's like nothing else
Like I could run and tell the devil to go f*ck himself

Oh Lord, I ain't afraid to die
If it means I'm by your side
It would be such a heavenly way to say goodbye
From now until the afterlife
Be it rain, or hail, or shine
We could be intertwined

Whether you were heaven-sent to save me from above
Or the only one who doesn't hate me, that's enough
When I need someone to save me from original sin
You call me like a chorus only angels could sing
Now I think about you all of the time
Oh, what a heavenly kind of state of mind

You bring me peace that I'd never find
There's only chaos when I'm left here to my own device
To tell the truth, I think you saved my life
Giving my heart over to you would be no sacrifice

Oh Lord, I ain't afraid to die
If it means I'm by your side
It would be such a heavenly way to say goodbye
From now until the afterlife
Be it rain, or hail, or shine
We could be intertwined

Whether you were heaven-sent to save me from above
Or the only one who doesn't hate me, that's enough
When I need someone to save me from original sin
You call me like a chorus only angels could sing
Now, I think about you all of the time
Oh, what a heavenly kind of state of mind

And I feel the rapture when I'm looking at ya
Oh, what a heavenly kind of state of mind
You're the only reason that I keep believing
Oh, what a heavenly kind

Darling, you were heaven-sent to save me from above
You're the only one who doesn't hate me, that's enough
When I need someone to save me from original sin
You call me like a chorus only angels could sing
Now, I think about you all of the time
Oh, what a heavenly kind of state of mind

And I feel the rapture when I'm looking at ya
Oh, what a heavenly kind of state of mind
You're the only reason that I keep believing
Oh, what a heavenly kind of state of mind

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Haven't You Ever Been In Love Before?

Don't put your cover up
You know it's bad for your health
And when the going's tough
You're way too hard on yourself
I wish you'd open up
And I'd lend a little to help
Before you dive off the deep end

Will you hold me like you want me?
But you don't give me nothin' else
Feel this happening
But you feel absent
Can you tell me what it is?

And she said this
"Haven't you ever been in love before?
You heard 'em say, it takes the pain away
And it's a feeling that you can't ignore
But it's more like a knife to me than a high to me
And my heart can't fall apart anymore
If you knew what I knew, you'd be terrified
Haven't you ever been in love before?"

If we don't work it out
That's something I could accept
But I feel you're ruling out
A love that ain't happened yet
And maybe I'm a fool
But I just can't live with regret
I'd rather dive off the deep end

Will you hold me like you want me?
But you don't give me nothin' else
Feel this happening
But you feel absent
Can you tell me what it is?

And she said this
"Haven't you ever been in love before?
You heard 'em say, it takes the pain away
And it's a feeling that you can't ignore
But it's more like a knife to me than a high to me
And my heart can't fall apart anymore
If you knew what I knew, you'd be terrified
Haven't you ever been in love before?"

Well, we could be falling
Falling
There's nothing I want more than all that you got
'Cause I'm falling

And she said this
"Haven't you ever been in love before?
You heard 'em say, it takes the pain away
And it's a feeling that you can't ignore
But it's more like a knife to me than a high to me
And my heart can't fall apart anymore
If you knew what I knew, you'd be terrified
Haven't you ever been in love before?"

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Love The Hell Out Of You

You got your demons, spend seasons on the dark side of the moon
Don't try denying 'cause you know that I've been there too
Well, right now, I know how it feels like the world's gonna end
But I'll get you through, if it's the last thing I do

I'm gonna love the hell out of you
Take all the pain that you're going through
I'll bring you heaven if that's what you need
'Cause you've always loved the hell out of me

You brought resounding techniques for my grounding when I
Had lost it, a little too far from the middle to find
Some solace from all this exhaustion and monsters of mine
So you better know that I'll bring you home

I'm gonna love the hell out of you
Take all the pain that you're going through
And I'll bring you heaven if that's what you need
'Cause you've always loved the hell out of me

Me
In the moment you feel half-complete
Know the moments are temporary
When the fear fuels the fire underneath

I'm gonna love the hell out of you
Take all the pain that you're going through
And I'll bring you heaven, yeah, if that's what you need
'Cause you've always loved the hell out of me

You've always loved the hell out of me

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Burning

Can't even begin to explain
This all too well familiar pain
It comes and it goes
But it gets in my bones all the same, ooh

Well, maybe I'm a fool
For falling in love with you
When I had nothing left to lose
And nothing more I could give
Went down with your sinking ship
Now I don't think I'll make it through
Through

Now it's only the beat of my heart
That reminds me not to stare at the sparks
Can't set fire to my soul just to keep ya
Keep ya
Keep ya from burning alone
'Cause the longer you convince me to stay
Our salvation's slipping further away
Can't set fire to my soul just to keep ya
Keep ya
Keep ya from burning alone

Forget everything we've come to expect
It only serves to further f*ck with our heads
And I don't wanna pretend
This will all be alright in the end, ooh

So maybe now, instead of balancing on the edge
We can put this to bed for good
Can call it quits or risk sinking with this broken ship
But I don't think we'd make it through
Through

Now it's only the beat of my heart
That reminds me not to stare at the sparks
Can't set fire to my soul just to keep ya
Keep ya
Keep ya from burning alone
'Cause the longer you convince me to stay
Our salvation's slipping further away
Can't set fire to my soul just to keep ya
Keep ya
Keep ya from burning alone

I wish I could stay
I wish I could lie
Do whatever it takes to get you through the night
I can't be the one
I can't take the fall
Can't go up in the flames to keep your body warm

Now it's only the beat of my heart
That reminds me not to stare at the sparks
Can't set fire to my soul just to keep ya
Keep ya
Keep ya from burning alone
'Cause the longer you convince me to stay
Our salvation's slipping further away
Can't set fire to my soul just to keep ya
Keep ya
Keep ya from burning alone

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Any Kind Of Life

You were the raging storm that wrecked
A beautiful mind I can't forget
Knew from the moment that we met I'd take you home
But now that the future's so unclear
Have all of your feelings disappeared?
'Cause I'm in no kind of frame of mind to let you go

Hope, have you some that I can borrow?
'Cause I've been so low
And the weight of all the world's a heavy load
Keep me going 'til tomorrow
'Cause I just don't know
If I can face another day alone

Well, my lungs don't breathe
And my heart don't beat
And I can't believe in any kind of life without you here
And I can't move on
'Cause it feels so wrong
No, I just don't want any kind of life without you, dear

Are there any words that I could say?
I'm feeling our moment fade away
In a matter of hours, we'll be drowning in the waves
And all of the memories that we shaped
We're leaving behind here in my wake
If we can save the good we gave, we shouldn't wait

Hope, have you some that I can borrow?
'Cause I just don't know
If I can face another day alone

Well, my lungs don't breathe
And my heart don't beat
And I can't believe in any kind of life without you here
And I can't move on
'Cause it feels so wrong
No, I just don't want any kind of life without you, dear

Now you're not here, I can't explain
The carousel of my constant pain
I'm not sure that I can hold on anymore
Became a victim of circumstance
Should have said when I had the chance
I don't want any kind of life without you here

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The Pretender

I will be your shoulder to cry on
I will make you laugh if you need
I will play the part if you say so
Yeah, I'll be anybody but me

To tell you the truth, I'm a mess, I'm a fool
You don't know that
And you never will
In my mind, it's instilled not to show that

I spend almost all of my time
Feeling like I'm falling even further behind
And I know I'm so good at seeming
Like I'm not on the edge of a knife
I'm the pretender
What can I tell ya'? Designed to deceive
So tell me, who you want me to be

I can wear a million faces
'Cause I don't like the one underneath
Always found it easy to fake it
Yeah, I'll be anybody but me

To tell you the truth, I'm the fraud in the room
And I know that
But you never will
In my mind, it's instilled not to show that

I spend almost all of my time
Feeling like I'm falling even further behind
And I know I'm so good at seeming
Like I'm not on the edge of a knife
I feel like everything I do is a lie
And all the words just further pull the wool over eyes
I know I'm no good at being who I am away from the light
I'm the pretender
What can I tell ya? Designed to deceive
So tell me, who you want me to be

And I'll be
Be my best impression of what you expect from me
But what you don't see

Is I spend almost all of my time
Feeling like I'm falling even further behind
I know I'm so good at seeming
Like I'm not on the edge of a knife
I feel like everything I do is a lie
And all the words just further pull the wool over eyes
I know I'm no good at being who I am away from the light
I'm the pretender, what can I tell ya'?
And I'm an imposter but hell is a mender
I'm the pretender
What can I tell ya'? Designed to deceive
So tell me, who you want me to be

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Leave Me Slowly

Two heartbeats, never in time
Two lovers over enemy lines
I know we're broken but don't wanna believe it

You're so close to saying the words
Way past the point of any return
It's such a shame and I don't wanna believe it

Oh, if I could go back to that evening we met
Trembling hands as I'd ask for your number again
You saw me different then
Oh, when I held your heart in my hand

So, if you're gonna leave me
Just leave me slowly
Let's make it last
Just one more dance
Before the moment's passed
I'd rather that you lay here
Than leave me lonely
So stay for a while
Just one more mile
Before we say goodbye

Two shadows of the people we were
So close to finding heaven on earth
It's such a shame and I don't wanna believe it

Oh, if I could go back to that evening we met
Trembling hands as I'd ask for your number again
You saw me different then
Oh, when I held your heart in my hand

So, if you're gonna leave me
Just leave me slowly
Let's make it last
Just one more dance
Before the moment's passed
I'd rather that you lay here
Than leave me lonely
Stay for a while
Just one more mile
Before we say goodbye

(Yeah)
(Ah-ah)

Oh, I'd kill to go back to that evening we met
Trembling hands as I'd ask for your number again
You saw me different then
Oh, when I held your heart in my hand

So, if you're gonna leave me
Just leave me slowly

(If you're gonna leave) So, baby, if you leave me
(Leave me slowly) Just leave me slowly
Let's make it last
Just one more dance
Before the moment's passed
(I'd rather that you lay here) I'd rather that you lay here
(Than leave me lonely) Than leave me lonely
Stay for a while
Just one more mile
Before we say goodbye

(If you're gonna leave, leave me slowly)
Stay for a while
Just one more mile
Before we say goodbye

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How This Ends

You said, "Who are we fooling?"
I guess that you gave up
On all that I am and all that I'm not
'Cause I'm f*cking useless and full of excuses
I guess that you cut free
From all that we are and will never be

Now the flowers are dead like the hearts in our chest
And I'm hanging my head 'cause I'm tryna forget
How we bled, and we bled, and we bled, and we bled

So, this is where we ended up
All of those years that I wasted for love
And here it is, forevermore
The house is on fire and I can't find the door
If I had the heart to start it again
I'd stamp out the sparks in my own self-defence
Say, you ain't gonna like how this ends

You know if we went back
To fix what we once had
There'd still be no chance
For you and me 'cause inevitably

All the flowers would die, and the tears from your eyes
Would come as no surprise as I tried to forget
How we bled, and we bled, and we bled, and we bled

So, this is where we ended up
All of those years that I wasted for love
And here it is, forevermore
The house is on fire and I can't find the door
If I had the heart to start it again
I'd stamp out the sparks in my own self-defence
No, you ain't gonna like how this ends

Broken with no way to mend
No you ain't gonna like how this ends
I'm stuck here just tryna forget
How we bled, and we bled, and we bled, and we bled

So, this is where we ended up
All of those years that I wasted for love
And here it is, forevermore
The house is on fire and I can't find the door
If I had the heart to start it again
I'd stamp out the sparks in my own self-defence
Say, you ain't gonna like how this ends

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How I'm Feeling Now

Will you forgive me if I'm coming off a little bit obtuse?
Well, it's been a minute now since I have had to tell the truth
I know I can
I won't

Suppose I thought that by this moment I would have it figured out
But instead, I tend to spend my days consumed by seeds of doubt
I know I can
I won't

Oh, darling, it goes on and on and on
Always, forever, 'til I'm barely holding on
End of my tether and I know it won't be long
It won't be long 'til it's gone

So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my f*cking head

On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"

I try to tell myself my best days are the ones that lie ahead
But I'm always looking back on things I wish I'd never said
I know I can
I won't

Oh, darling, it goes on and on and on
Always, forever, 'til I'm barely holding on
End of my tether and I know it won't be long
It won't be long 'til it's gone

So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my f*cking head

On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"

I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah
But I'll get there
No, I won't lie, I'm a mess, yeah
But I'll get there

So here's to my beautiful life
That seems to leave me so unsatisfied
No sense of self, but self-obsessed
I'm always trapped inside my f*cking head

On and on and on, on and on and on
On and on and on, on and on and on
Said, "Thought I'd be happier somehow
If you were wondering how I'm feeling now"