LA Rodriguez - I'm Embarrassed Lyrics

I admit I f*cked up
But make it work was the plan b
Plan a was to make my mom a grammy
Plan C was to bring home the grammy
Bring home the girl who would jump in the family
That was you now its cool swear im fine now
Guess it didn't happen then its due time now
Nothing left cuz I threw out my pride now
So Im not embarrassed in these songs when I whine now
Wind down with the friends I grew up with
Not really my friends just some dudes I threw up with
The people I hold near are often not here
So I swig a couple beers when I'm down on my lonely

Down on my drunk shit
Down on fear tho
I cry driving to work
And I feel like a weirdo
And I feel like you hate me
I feel like get me
I feel your happy now
And thats the shit that upsets me
Cuz I thought I made you f*cking happy with my sad ass
I thought I helped you get over such a sad past
The girl misused mistreated misfortunate
I really thought I found that sad girl who adores this kid

But
Now theres no chance for our isle walk
Think about those lies in my idle thoughts
Gotta keep busy keep my mind off of marriage
And being too honest
On second thought
I am embarrassed
Red Bull and a bouquet
Remind me again where you stay
You've been moving from place to place
These days
Tell me and I'm on the way
Twenty-three I'm on the go
Twenty-five hundred a show
Looking at me funny
Like ah shit it's picking up now
Yeah i called you one day
But of course you'd pick it up now
Looking at the money
Like of course he's switching up
Looking at your honey
Like of course you'd give it up now
Twenty-seven still working on the sidewalks
Shit I'm 23 and I'm working on a time slot
But that doesn't make me better
Just bitter

You see that pretty girl
I was just tryna get with her
Yeah a couple dudes
Think I'm cupping dudes
Just who the f*ck are you
Just confused bout your couple views
While I'm out in Haiti
Spent
With my lady friends
Counting benjamins
Beachside at lakou lakay
Would you decide please
Don't worry about this nigga and his timepiece
Or his sidepiece
Girl you a dam dime piece
Boom and her mind gone
Love to stay and chat
But we're in another time zone
But baby if you wanna chat hit my line up
Put your pride aside lets get dined up somewhere nobody could find us
Jacob tell em