Leah B - Close My Eyes Lyrics

Thought of thoughts going around my head
I just wanna sleep but, what if I forget
I keep pulling myself back when I feel myself drifting
It's as if I'm missing something but, my mind is just drifting
Shifting the positives so they're no longer here to stay
Pushing the negatives forward making it harder to push them away
I just wanna feel okay
I don't wanna be this way

Keep my mouth shut and clench my teeth
Get together and find a way to speak
Close my eyes and go to sleep
Keeping me awake even though I feel so weak
I wanna fly away from all of this pain
I try to smile, but I don't feel the same
My head is making me feel so ashamed
Making me feel so bad when I'm not to blame
Oh oh oh oh

Thinking about what I said yesterday
Was it right or was it okay
Did I make you feel uncomfortable
Did I say to much or was I unsociable
Thinking about what I ate yesterday
Is driving me crazy making me lie awake
I don't wanna feel this way
I just wanna be okay

Keep my mouth shut and clench my teeth
Get together and find a way to speak
Close my eyes and go to sleep
Keeping me awake even though I feel so weak
I wanna fly away from all of this pain
I try to smile, but I don't feel the same
My head is making me feel so ashamed
Making me feel so bad when I'm not to blame
Oh oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh

I wanna break free from the emotions
Not feel the explosions of
The thoughts going around in my head
Feel happy for real and not pretend
Go to sleep with an empty head
So i can deal with the stress

Keep my mouth shut and clench my teeth
Pull myself together so that i can speak
Close my eyes and go to sleep
Why was I living in such disbelief
No need to fly away from all of the pain
Cause I Will smile and I'll feel no shame
My head is in a much happier place
But, tears are still rolling down my face

Oh oh oh oh (I'm not to blame)
I'm not to blame
Oh oh oh oh
I'm not to blame