Legacy - Fucked Up (Hurt) Lyrics

Weeks have gone by, and I still think of you
This cup runs dry, think I need a round two
I tried to reply, but I don't know how to
I was searching for perfection, and then I found you
And it was all good 'till I saw it...
All those mother f*ckers in your contacts...
Looking at the messages, I think I get the concept
My anger had been growing ever slowly in my conscience...
FUCK!
I BELIEVED IN YOUR LIES...
Took it as truth
But you stabbed me in the back just like all of them do
And it killed me inside...
A hollowed out dude...
Foolish for believing you would help me push through
But it's my fault...
And I can't blame this on you so I dive off...
Don't wanna talk about you, but they drive on
Thinking that I'm fine but I wanna f*cking DIVE OFF
FUCK!
Pent up with emotion and it sucks...
Dreaming of an ocean and I'm stuck...
Calling out for help, but no luck...
Thought I was free, but I'm f*cked up...
Heart telling me no one loves us...
It's hard to believe it was just us...
Now it's me, memories made of saw dust
Fine... Look, I get it...
I told you I loved you; but I meant it...
But I shouldn't have fallen and I regret it...
I type a paragraph, I'm like "forget it..."
She just gonna wanna disrespect it anyways
And I'm anxious with depression
Wanna cry but I prevent it
Not to mention
This music shit, it is making me f*cking STRESSED
And I'm losing stability getting reckless...
I'm sorry if this hurts but I just needed to address this...
I know why I'm so angry, so I gave it some direction
You held onto my heart and I was hoping for protection
But you cut it into pieces and then told me that I DID IT...
FUCK!
What is love?
It could really be a drug...
Withdrawals every time I think about your kisses and your hugs, and I lose it...
Stupid...
Tired of the lies, I just need a little true shit
The betrayal's getting old and I can't keep doing this
I hear them competing to see who the f*cking truest is
But all I see are masks, and I just can't tell who it is...
So I'm by myself..
F*ck it all
Blow it all to f*cking high-hell
I'd rather love the pain in my head where I dwell
F*ck friends, I would drop everything else...
I did it all alone, and alone I'll prevail
Suicide lines are a lie, they don't help
I was dying inside, but I'm alright now
I just needed to see all of the power that I held
Inside of myself
Quit disguising... and depriving myself...
'Cause I'll be alright
With the time I will heal
With a little more time than it took when I...
Fell...